An Apple And The Pasture

Saturday, February 28, 2009
[[ :S ]]

This is damn scary.

I just realized that I hardly see ISIS people online for this week.

Did i...

a) Came up at the wrong time ?

b) became blind ?

Did they...

a) study like mad to catch up whatever we missed out (ahem, example BS209 ?)

b) Has so many play dates ? (Which sadly I don't have)

c) Go to lab (ahem, Weemeng :P)

Guess I have to keep wondering.

On my side,

I wanted to go the M.A.C Hello Kitty preview today.

Sigh.

I managed to change my perspective about it though :D

Since I am just a pseudo-fan of M.A.C

I reckoned I did do better by studying for virology.

Which was what I did =)

Like some people who thought that MANGO is really the fruit.

I have some guys here who thought that M.A.C is = Macdonald (a direct assumption due to the Hello Kitty craze) and yes, my favorite MAC apple.

Now if there were to be a MAC Hello Launch in Singapore, with Steve Jobs personally coming down. *eyes glitter excitedly* .......

I will still be studying for Virology.

*shocked*

Because apparently I wouldn't have the invite. DUH.

Hahaha!

Here's my new production =) ]I realized that I forgot to put Hello Kitty, sheesh]

I added some super ultimate basic virus facts, which we should already know.

Too simple to even forget incidentally hahahaha.

[[home]]

Dear came over to my house today (after much whining from both sides)

Despite the fact that we had to be in separate rooms while we study, I enjoyed his company here.

*snuggles snuggles*

This beats going out and spend money ^^

Had an inspiration to search for cute photoshop brushes.

Here's a picture with some of the brushes I downloaded.

Suppppppppppppperrrrrrrrrr Kawaii lor!

Today is like the happiest day out of the whole recess week :)

Thursday, February 26, 2009
[[-.-]]

Monday was a very fun day.

I went to school to meet Prof R.

She gave me a scare by sending an rejection email which was supposed to be for another ABP student.

Finally it was 2pm and I went up to her office.

She asked me about the module and the final conclusion we had from the meeting was:

" Let's meet on Monday, I still don't know what to give you for your project"

Total time taken ? 10 minutes.

Total traveling time ? 1.5 hours.

Then as I walked to Can A it started to POUR.

Despite me standing in the shelter I was 1/4 drenched.

The bus finally came.

"TI TI TI TI"

Great! -$0.79. I thought I had $0.79.

I only had a tenner in my wallet.

So I step out of the bus INTO a puddle of water.

By the time I reached Can A

1/2 drenched.

Jason kindly offered me a ride home.

Which I obviously didn't hesitate to take up.

After suaning him and all, my mood got even better

Whoops.

Hahaha, still found Monday hilarious.

Back home, I got a surprise from Thailand.

(Marshmallow insisted on being in the picture) Look at the envelop so cute okay!
Sg don't even have such nice envelop.

Ta da! Lotree powder pact was suppppppppperrrrrrrrr nice smelling.

Took a photo of Marshmallow afterwards and went ga-ga for the whole day.

He looks too darn cute.

AHHHHH~~~

I am thankful for my thoughtful friends in Thailand ^^

I am thankful for having this cute little thing brightening up my day ~

Saturday, February 21, 2009
[[whoops]]

Oppsy. It's been a week since I last updated.

Kinda can tell my workload in school yea ? (nah! I was just lazy)

Final week before this recess week. I was so so so relieved. Planned to do loads of things during this week. Since I grew to love this quote, I know I can make it.

"What the mind can conceive and believe, it can be achieved -Napoleon Hill"

Nonetheless, my joker cousin told me not to anyhow conceive. 0.o

I forgot to put the flowers he sent me using OZ IP address:

Sweet of him.

I have been doing my best to eradicate all the negative thoughts that I have for the past week. I am glad to announce that it worked most of the time. My temper despite it being short, my outbrust have be shorten. I am serious!

Like when they told us we have to submit our project for BS901, I was shouting all over and within 10 minutes I have cooled down. See~!

Dear came over to my house for dinner yesterday.

It's been eons since he last stepped in.

Marshmallow thought he had to go home.

Nah! I wouldn't let you stay in the super hot non-aircon environment.

Still.

It was nice to have some time alone with dear.

Both of us were so caught up with schoolwork that we hardly go out anymore =(

Unfortunately I am going to have a 5 day work week even during semestral break, owning to BS901 + special sem.

I don't care.

I shall only start the project 2 weeks after the start of holidays.

A side note, thank Jason for listening to my rants over the idiot and some other people who suan-ed my skills.

Oooo I almost forgot.

We had our gang dinner on Total Defence's Day @ chomp chomp. Loads of unglam pictures of me. Hahaha, so unglam that they almost looked hilarious.

We looked so much like some kampong kids having so much fun. (when all we did was putting the victory sign behind the drinks)

Feast time~!

Getting updates of each other's lives

Don't be fooled by this picture. I am actually more delicious than that.

This is one auntie photo. -.o LOOK AT SIAN! She's holding my hand (because she is scared of cars) Sheesh.

These 2 are the best I can find (with my face in it, obviously)

I forgot to put Yuhong's face, nevermind la, you gimme the rest of the photos first :P

Lastly,

I am pleased to announce that:

1) I have finish 1 assignment today

2) Search 10 journals for BS313 (yet to read though)

3) the HW teacher liked our (or rather my) idea - been planning since last year : A good go-ahead means 1/4 of the battle won

4) I finally paid my $1.50 library dues.

Saturday, February 14, 2009
[vday]

It's the nicest Valentine I had ever since I was born.

No, it wasn't an exaggeration.

Back in the "old" days, we didn't have the habit or the "urge" to give anyone things during Vday.

So I grew up thinking that giving people flowers were stupid and impractical. In contrast, chocs were my best friend.

I think I had advocate this so to so many people that they start to equate every other things to me except flowers. Which simply means, I have never received flowers before. Nah, I wasn't sad.

This year was an exception.

Dear gave me pretty pink roses this year. ^^

Sunflowers were from Woof. (For asking me zillion of questions ?)

Thank you guys for making my day yesterday and today.
I totally understand why people give flowers now.
Flowers light up girl's day.
Despite the hassle to arrange them in a pot
Despite not knowing where to store them when they dry up.

Happy Vday everyone :)

Wednesday, February 11, 2009
[[tired]]

I was sorry that Dad had to interfere yesterday, despite being worried and sad over grandmom, I made him worried for me as well.

Second time in Uni I had cried to my dad. No matter how hurt or accused I felt, I have always been sucking them up.

It was just yesterday when I truly realized how lucky my mom was. to have my dad as a husband.

I thought I found someone uncannily alike. But how wrong I was. Faced with adversity, my dad didn't lash out on any of us. He just kept to himself. He wasn't even angry at my mom for saying logical things - the things people say when it's not their loved ones who were sick. He knew and understand the limitedness of the things we could do for him.

Instead of lashing out on him in front of me, he told me to understand. Yet even he was at a loss of what to say when I explained my rational for doing things. When I got back to apologize for shouting (and that's all I will apologize for), and explaining my rational back to him, I thought I would be free of all emotions.

I was indeed free, and a new emotion settled in.

I was tired.

Tired and sick of this whole thing.

This whole thing that I didn't ask for.

I was tired to see the self defense.

I was tired that still despite explanations, it was still never about us it was still always about him.

If someone told me I could sleep the whole day and wake up without remembering anything, I would gladly do that.

媽：幹麼要拿冰塊？

我：昨天睡不好，眼睛腫。

I presumed Dad told her the reason. But she kept quiet and let me do my own things.

Leave me alone.

Sunday, February 08, 2009

Mutually exclusive.

2 parallels.

I don't know how to communicate anymore

Just stay away from me.

Saturday, February 07, 2009
[[marley]]

It seemed that this new year was off from a bad start. Prior to the surgery, the doctors announced that the cancer cell had somehow metastasized from the esophagus to the stomach. The thin yet still strong woman was in for a very hard time - chemotherapy. A potential treatable cancer. A surgery with a success rate of 90%. At the golden age of 80+, it would be living hell. Knowing what this situation means, it was no surprise why my dad was feeling so sad.

There's just something different from Asian and Caucasian culture. Or maybe it is just me. As eloquent as I am with strangers (especially my fortune gods), I am at a lost of what to say to people who are worrying about their loved ones. What do you say after "How is he/she feeling today ?" ," Is he/she better now ?" "Keep me updated with his/her conditions" I try to avoid saying things like " Don't worry" , "He/She will be better". It makes no sense to tell people not to worry when that's the exact thing they are always thinking.

I think silence is especially golden in this case. Or maybe it is just me.

Likewise for the worrying party, they will be withdrawn. From their work, from their loved ones. Or maybe it's just me. I seemed not to have the ability to reach out to them.

Marley and me.
At first I was skeptical about this book. Even more so when I learnt that I have to "witness" the dog's death. I went and bought it anyway since Borders was having the 3 for 2 sale. (I got my Wednesday letters too! Woo)

Marley reminded me of life;s brevity, of its fleeting joys and missed opportunities. He reminded me that each of us get just one shot at gold, with no replays"

I felt something else, as well- an amazement at the boundless capacity of the human heart, at once big enough to absorb a tragedy of this magnitude yet still find room for the little moments of personal pain and heartache that are part of my life. I realized that even amid the colossus of human heartbreak that was Flight 93, I could still feel the sharp pang of the loss I knew was coming

"You are going to tell me when it's time right ? You'll let me know, won't you? "

You know all the stuff we've always said about you ? What a total pain you are ? Don't believe it. Don't believe it for a minute Marley" " Marley, you are a great dog"

To Marley: I hope you know how much I loved you all of my life. You were always there when I needed you. Through life or death I will always love you. Your brother, Conor Grogan"

Marley taught me about living each day with unbridled exuberance and joy, about seizing the moment and following your heart. He taught me to appreciate the simple things. And as he grew old and achy, he taught me about optimism in face of adversity.

Mostly he taught me about friendship and selflessness and, above all else, unwavering loyalty

I guessed enough is said.

Thursday, February 05, 2009
[[CNY]]

CNY Eve
As usual, I slept late, though this time it was labelled as 守歲. If the belief really worked, I wouldn't mind giving up 24 hours of sleep just for that ideality to play itself out. My 2 bugger siblings were knocked out before the clock struck 12. Sheesh.

Day 1
We went to the paternal side first because they arranged for a buffet. I was shocked to see how thin my grandma had became. My Peter Pan complex naturally welled up.

Couldn't recognize several people because they weren't usually there by the time we made it to the paternal side. Blindly taking their ang baos with a half-hearted "Happy CNY" made me feel a little bad, but oh wells. You can pretend you never see me one you know.

We were one of the later few who reached my maternal side house. I got to see my cuzzie who came back from OZ for a week!! Went to his house to collect the crumplers and got a free car ride home :) There's some long story behind, but it's kinda like geographical humor.

At dear's
Despite still having a firm stance over "visiting extended families" I finally went and did it. It wasn't as bad as I expected. In fact, I was touched when dear insisted on introducing me to each and every uncles and aunties. It just showed his stance on "visiting extended families" Nonetheless, I was the nanny again whenever there's young kids.

ISIS reunion dinner
Pretty decent turnout! Especially those peeps whom we had not seen for a long long time.
I was such a klutz. BUT i have to insist that the lao yu sheng thing wasn't me!
How can a bony person have so much strength right ? RIGHT ? :D *smiles innocently*
The chopsticks below were pushing my chopsticks up, and the ones above were pushing it down. My chopsticks stressed you know.

I not anti ailin or songhui lor.

Then I have to pour my chinese tea all over the restaurant's floor.
I had to, because my bones told me too 0.o
YES IT WAS ACCIDENTAL as well.
Nor am I anti-ing liying or xiao yun

I had great fun at the dinner. We were all laughing like crazy throughout the whole dinner and it felt like FOC again :)

I finished writing about CNY woo!

Sunday, February 01, 2009
[[masks]]

I didn't know Mr. Postman works on Sunday too.

The early "ding-dong" told me that I have 2 incoming parcels.

This week had been wasted much thanks to the lenses and masks.

Still, no complains.

I accepted the profits, I must accept the work that came with it too.

It was quite a sight when I sorted out the masks.

1400 masks were really no joke.

It's like those drug trafficking scene seen on TV, except these are legal :)

Took me 4 hours to get everything done.

Supplier was damn cool! He gave me 19 FREE eye masks. Just what I needed :D

I shall not open masks spree till May.

It's giving me backaches all over.

I hired my sister for $6 to sort the mask for me too.

On retrospect, I didn't know why I hire her for. Waste my money. £@%$£%%

Dear, give me backrubs soon :)

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