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Monday, December 29, 2008
[[out]]

Slightly longer than a year ago, I made arrangements to meet-up with Ashyura after I have gotten my results. I ended up not meeting with her. 


Because I was not very happy with what I've gotten.




Slightly a year later, I made arrangements to meet up with her again.
Coincidentally, it was also after results day. 





I am going to meet her now. Today. 
Despite all the nonsense going on in my life, there's one thing that thankfully stayed the same. 
Friends.
That much I know.
For everything had went downhill in every other aspects of my life. 
I thank the "flaw" for this. 
Close to asking "Why me ? Why the hell has it got to be me who sees it and do something about it ?"


Friend, help me out here like I know you would. 



[[results]]

Pre- results anxiety was so high that the 1st thing JS said over the phone was " Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh"
Me?
I just think that I wouldn't do well. 


Outcome?
Relax, it was pretty decent.
It's not want I really wanted, but again it proved that I can do well for my cores. Never mind all the rubbish non-bio stuff that's pulling me down. Sure, it sucks to have your gpa pulled down for nonsense thing you didn't sign up for when you applied for uni. Look on the bright side! I am still decent for my core! I got my first A+, that's something I should rejoice :)



Something happened that made me rethink who's actually there for me in my time of need. 
That the people who I am comfortable talking to about certain topics wouldn't be there for me all the time. It's time to put down all the self esteem concerns and go right down to the people who have been with me all these while. 

Talking to JS made me feel more at peace with what I have seen or heard. It didn't matter then, what was the greatest challenge I have to overcome. It didn't throw me off, when she mentioned the most pessimistic outcome, because at some point in time I felt that way too. 

I want to believe I have made progress. 
I want to believe that it would be a brand new phase. 
We have been stuck in the old phase for so long that it's time to move on. 
But things just turn up, and compel me to think otherwise. 
I come to a point of helplessness, when I really don't know what my next move should be. 


I really don't anymore. 


On the bright side...
Thanks for letting me be the 1st one to know of your idea. It's really a decent one. One that I could get excited about if I am on it. It seemed that my "commitment" level could potentially be a problem. Hah! Do let me know if I can help in any way. Afterall, what are friends for ? To throw all the sai kang at them! LOL


I know you girls wouldn't be reading this, but...
To Sian and Marilyn:
The gang dynamics had changed a lot recently. While I am sad over some changes, I am pretty glad for others too. 
Admittedly we haven't been talking so much since separated during JC times, but we got back together everytime in times of need. 
Sian, I am thankful that you have been there all these time way back from sec school. (Even though I was the prime suspect lesbian partner)
Marilyn, I am so glad that our friendship has evolved in so many ways. 

Thank you


Sunday, December 28, 2008
[[to-do]]

What I did today:
  1. I woke at 3
  2. I check for emails that never seems to come
  3. I went facebook
  4. I decided to skip breakfast/lunch what have you
  5. I sms my friend
  6. I brush my teeth
  7. I went to pee
  8. I went into the kitchen to find food
  9. I read a book
  10. I stayed in the room
Wait.
It's pointless isn't it ?
Without you in my life, other things weren't worth mentioning.

If caring for me equates to taking care of a tamagotchi, congratulations, you have a damn easy job. I wish that job scope is mine. 

How am I feeling ?
Why am I feeling this way ?
Why didn't I want to eat my lunch ?
What book did I read ?
What was it about ?
Do I think is nice ? What are my thoughts on it ?

Do you know ?
Do you want to know ?
Wait a second. You don't see the need to know. 



[[kaki]]

The owner and the dog day!
Let's see. The day started with us walking everywhere in Suntec and fighting to pay at the cashier.
What't wrong with us ?
I think we must be the most entertaining people the cashier met today.

So, we drank soup for lunch.
It was Forzar Minestrones. Somehow I misread that as frozen minestrones. I kept on badgering about why is the soup frozen. Sheesh, 1 month without school and looked what I have became.
Retard. Like him. Oh no!
 


Here's what luppy did. He kpo-ed my jacket. And still complained it's tight. What's the matter with you!
A well deserved drink to my readers who got a scare from the above picture. I am so sorry for not warning you =p

Thanks luppy =)
For the soup, for the dinner, for the drink and for carrying my bag. Sheesh I feel so bad. Wait for my orders okay :)
Oh yes, thank you for all the random entertaining things you did, from esprit all the way till attempting murder by the puddles. 
I mean, you were trying to murder my shoes you know, not cheap okay =P
Sorry for making you ps-ed your ex-HI, and spent the whole day with me. I must have been annoying. 

Lastly, thanks for hearing my rants. It's been so long since I last retold that to people.


Before I forget, stop smelling peppers and planting misotle in your ears.
Get well soon!



Thursday, December 25, 2008
[[cousin]]

On Christmas eve night, my no-life cousin came and talk to me again.
He wanted to test iChat with me, which was basically the same as Skype only a little cooler since it's mac stuff of course.

I think he didn't pay his bills because the room seemed so dark.


At his age, I still didn't know why the effects fascinate him so much. 

PLEASE EAT LESS!! I want to recognize you during CNY!!




Thanks for helping out with Mac stuff and all.
Oh yes, not to mention the entertainment yesterday. Bahaha. 
Merry Christmas cousin!



[[xmas]]

On Christmas eve, I did something different. 
No, I wasn't out with Brian (he was in lab 0.o, okay never mind him)
No, I didn't stay home and watch movie.
No, I didn't managed to get a whiff of turkey when I went to use the toilet in Intercontinental Hotel.
I went out with a friend dear to me, as he had been since Feb 18 2005. 
We didn't went to church, we went to a temple instead. 

I got a Christmas present too.
It was, most amazingly, a birthday present long overdue.

Mago with "The pillar". Liked Mago's new clothing ? I kop-ed from my marshimaro.


Anyway, that aside. 

To Tin:
Thank you for the present. I got a laugh when I see that title, BP's 19th.
I got more laughs when I read those comments. 
You actually went and not only read through those horrible English, you had managed to make sense out of them to comment on them. 
Oh gosh, I could barely glance at them even till now. However, that's my past, I have long learnt to accept it. My teen angst came perhaps a little too late and you were caught in the middle of it, that I apologize for. 

I am thankful that this present was delayed. Thinking back to Sep 2007 and your intentions then, this would not have been an appropriate present and maybe at that time I wouldn't have put so much value and worth to it. 

Your "art" had never been your strong point, but this is one present I would treasure, for the words themselves said so much more. Did you know, I have to go back and read some of the entries myself before I actually knew what you were talking about ? I guessed it was also encrypted to me now :D . I went and read some of yours too, to relish what I have gotten in the past and what I was too blind to see. I was touched, even till this date. 

What caught my attention though was that your "new" self had always been inside you. From the things you wrote back when you were your ku ku self ;) It appeared every now and then in the entries, maybe you should go back and look at them someday too. 

After reading your gift, I wondered how would the new you comment. I wondered how would you comment on 2007. I think these questions are pointless, unless you answer them. (Ahem, hint hint)

To the old you: Thank you for the memories and every sweet thing you did for me.
To the new you: Go high, as high as you can, as high as you want. 

Friends.

I later told Luppy about an emotion I never truly felt or embraced before.
Fondness. 
A certain kind of fondness for my friends. Not as deep as love, but heart warming all the same. 
It gives you this warm tingling feeling knowing that you have your friends caring for you, no matter how far apart. 

Merry Christmas :)



[[xmas]]

I wanted to blog about yesterday and all.
But not now.
Not in the right frame of mind and definitely don't have the energy to put words into sentences.


So for now, enjoy the below clip.
It's hilarious if you know what connections to make.





Merry Christmas people
My Santa will be home soon! Yay!


Wednesday, December 24, 2008
[[twilight]]

I really have to thank Thong for presenting me with Borders gift card.
Twilight the movie made me more certain to purchase the book.

Damn. I am stuck here for 10 minutes I still didn't know how to start. 
Beware: I would be over-rating this movie, because of the amazing cast.

The dialogues between Edward and Bella were kinda limited. They loved to fumble when they speak 0.o But but but! The intensity was there, maybe that's why I liked ang moh eyes. *gaga*
There's this particular scene which totally captured my heart. Never had I "fell in love" with an actor on screen! Overwhelmed, really. Maybe because of the hero saves damsel in distress plot, but at the same time he's dangerous. I think lesbians would want to be hetero jus for a while. 

There was so much unsaid in the movie, which was why I am going to get the book.


Great news for Twilight fans, part 2 will be screened in late 2009 or early 2010. Yay!!

Now for cast photos. (I only picked those handsome and beautiful people)

Edward and Ella, pretty sick of the same old Twilight ad. Edward looked much better here.
I figured since Ella is the lead afterall, I should put her in.
Robert Pattison. First noticed him in HP 4 - Cedric Diggory. England guys has a special place :)

Carlisle Cullen. Edward's "father"

James. The evil vampire. Errr sounds wrong.
He's hotter outside the movie.

And for the ladies.
(The ladies refused to load. Too da pai already. Shall try tomorrow)


Okay. I hua chi-ed for the whole afternoon, evening and night already.
Dear's not jealous but he's going crazy from my ga-gaing. Hahaha. I even told him not to read this entry otherwise the laptop might just crashed.

Yesterday was my first singing session sinceeeeeeeeeeeeee the 3 months break.
That was light years away. 
I had fun and lashed all I have on F.I.R song. So happy :)

Our dear organize pangseh us for dinner and sent his daughter as substitute. 
Dinner and Nihon Mura was not bad. 
Missed having the whole gang there but yea, be happy with what you have.
 

Oh yes. 
Dear and I  finally decided to reactivate our facebook account together :)
To my cousin in Aust: I have life okay :P 

Twilight OST is damn nice too!
Wheeeeeeee~~~


Monday, December 22, 2008
[[diaries]]

I finally did it.
I open-ed a near impossible spree.

For people who are sick of Art Box, Stationery Island ridiculously high price.
Please view:



The prices of the diaries are 50% of theirs.
Okay, so there is a high minimum order.
Let's hit it together!!! 

Spread the word people!


Saturday, December 20, 2008
[[nice]]

After loads of hesitation, I changed my blogskin.
No more Cher's face. Happy ?
I blurred this face too, because he's not supposed to be the focus. 
The focus is on the glass okay. 

And my excellent photoshop skills bah!


My lovely cousin in OZ loves me :)

Yeah yeah, and I miss you too bleh.

Anyway, the company is damnnnnn cui.
I said to send the parcel to Singapore.
They sent to Australia.
Just because my street name is Australia-ish. "Canberra Road"
What do they expect ? Singapore drive ?

Went to the Ettusias Private Sale yesterday with Thong. 
Of course I bought something!


The RSP for the eyeshadow was 60++, I got it for $15!! Yippee!
Anyway this was Sheseido and not Ettusias.
And also a makeup base RSP $41 for $12 !!!

Dear kindly collected my Korean diary too!
Hah! I got it for $14 lor~~ not $30 like what some other people did. Yay!!

Read an interesting book yesterday.
If only BS202 had been as interesting.
"Parasite Positive" by Scott Westerfield. I shall type a few chapters over the days =P for my own reading. 




Friday, December 19, 2008
[[wits]]

Thong thong came my house today :)
To learn photoshop.
I still feel that I didn't teach much since I didn't know much.

It's been some time since we last chatted so much.
Yay! Tomorrow we are going to Ettusias Private sale together :)

Anyway, I only had time to do 2 photoshop work.
Don't be fooled by dear's blog. 
It was actually MY artwork lor.
Stealer!

This was the official version before my director and I decided to change the movie title.
I reckon this because of this title, this movie wouldn't be the number 1 box office.
Sigh, what to do, main actor said he hates the first title wor. Complained about personal attacks.

Lastly, I loved this picture, coz the drink looked popped out. Other than that... it's obvious why I blurred the background ? =p

Feel like developing these photos, maybe I would soon :)


Thursday, December 18, 2008
[[PS]]

Back to photoshopping!!
Spent the day PS-ing several photos, for obvious reasons I shall only put mine up.
Say nice. 



I know. I am cute as a child :) (and now too =p )

Next up, teaching thong thong to use photoshop. A good "teacher" like me had already prepared some of the materials. 

Also, I shall be PS-ing dear which I expect to be a hard task seeing that he had just attained a new high in the "OF" rank. I swore I did ate up all the rice grains when I was a kid. Oh well. 

Having a major headache now. My body's overworked. Urgh. 
Pain pain. 
"我要呼呼" LOL. 


Wednesday, December 17, 2008
[[klaatu]]

So against all the poor ratings, Dear and I went to watch...




I have "dumped" Dean for a more mature guy - Keanu Reeves!!!

Oooo, I love him in suit. Not many guys can pull this off.


Anyway, back to the movie.

It was disappointing to say the least.
Some of the little bits were interesting, like those biological related part. Maybe they were an attempt to distract people from the bigger scheme of things ? Hmmm. 

The "other side of human" depicted was too vague and though people with normal IQ and EQ would understand what was the reason. BUT!!!!!!! It wasn't impactful enough!!! Okayyyyy, maybe the director wanted an abstract depiction. 

The ending was... cui. Really cui.

In fact the movie was cui!!! OMG, everything started and ended with Keanu touching the sphere and always touching the sphere. I reckoned that's part of the book's plot, so no choice. 
I still think that the book would be much more interesting. 

That aside, I got back my Viewty!!!
It's good as new!! One good thing about touch screen phone is, when the phone is cui, they change the WHOLE touchpad for you. So I have a brand new screen. Woohoo! They even upgraded the software, so I can use keyboard to type yay!

Dear bought me Meji Strawberry er.. er.. I forgot the name. Anyway it supposed to have some cocoa powder over it. Nor! That winter edition thingy. I didn't even know he bought it, until he stopped at the cashier after me. 0.o Yay!! So happy hee :)

Oh yes, we managed to find his bro's birdday gift too! Thanks to my “好眼光" wahahaha.


Currently, still lazing at home, waiting for emails to come in. Waiting for orders to come in.
I have done all that I could, please just send me your order forms!!!!!!!



Tuesday, December 16, 2008
[[busy]]

Yes!
Finally collected my Levis' Jeans
The bottom part fits me to a T while the top.. bit loose.
Damn sad.
Size 0!!!!!!!!! And it was still loose.
The woes of being skinny.
Never mind, I like being thin. 

I got dear to help me carry the heavy bag of Levis around Jurong Point. Hah! 
Free maid :)
The new Jurong Point was.. big.
But full of nonsense.
Artbox, Stationery Island were full of overpriced Korean stuff, made me felt like slapping them.
Each of the item was at least $10 - $15 more expensive. Irksome. 

I've got one irritating mosquito bite at my tummy area.
Stupid mosquito.
It's itching like crazy whenever my shorts shifted. Eek!

Finally going to collect my Viewty, it's been in the ICU for a long time. Yippee!

Pimple Head, Moon Face, Oily Face . HOHOHOHO


Monday, December 15, 2008
[[boo!]]

I remembered I said I wanted to scare people...

Boo!! Got miss me ? Tehehe


Finally!!!!!!
My LEVIS JEANS IS HERE!!!!!
So is my blusher.
And my diary.
Woohoo!


I think I am still missing something.. hmmm. *smiles*



[[不良笑花]]

Chiong-ed finished Miss No Good within 2 days !! Channel U's speed is too slow.
Lots of laughters, lots of tears.
Perhaps because I found some of the bitter-sweet scenes all too familiar. 


No time to dwell on them now.
Latest craze : Fujioka Tatsuo!

Half the time I was wishing Xiao Hua to like him because he's so sweet in the show. 
Oh yes, the anime exterior was a plus point.


Okay, he's too old for me. 
The POINT I am trying to make is.
Guys with short hair are nice :)
This is so much better than when he was acting as " An Teng Feng"


Nice to have a show to help you relish memories no matter how they had once saddened you. 
Damn, I am such a sucker for such shows.
Throw in handsome actors, never mind the typical plot. I will watch it teeheehee.





Saturday, December 13, 2008

Coming out from a person who yearns more physical time,








It sucks.


Friday, December 12, 2008
[[gatherings]]

Finally a day at home.
Slept till 12.30pm woke up for lunch break before going back to sleep till 5.30pm
Pig!
Hah, I was tired out from 2 days of gathering.

Wed
Went out with Liying, Derrick and Zhao Liang.
Initially didn't want to go out because they kinda have no plans and it was already late afternoon.
Then they pulled out a weapon... Derrick!
They called him to psycho me. Irritating! Sure win one lor!
Anyway, since I have to transfer $ to Geo, so I shun bian go out. Keyword: Shun bian bleh!

We played pool!
That was my 1st time.
I am suchhhhhhh a noob.
Least I managed to hit some and ended game 2!
Weehee!

Had dinner at Cartel and gossipping left right center. So fun!
The 2 guys also concluded that Brian has no life, and that I am his only entertainment.
I rebutted by saying: He still has his lab and studies as entertainment bahahaha!
Oh yes, Neopets too :)

Thurs
Get this. First time in 8 years our gang finally met up with all 6 members present.
Why was it so difficult ?
a) We have a member who after 2 yrs have not told her mom she's in r/s so all her excuses are saved to meet up with her guy
b) We have one who is always active in various groups of friends
c) We have another who is always always busy

That's why.



So I was exceptionally glad even though all we did was to travel to the far east side just to eat yong dao fau.
Irene brought us to Obolo.
We walked through sun, through dark clouds, through drizzle, through heavy rain.
It was fun too, since I haven't had such a long walk for a long long time.

Obolo~
Oh how I wished I am going back there again.
Macarons are splendidly made, a stark contrast of the one I sampled in Taka.
The slices of cake themselves were already delicious.
The company made them even more.

That must be what heaven felt like when I ate the noisette.




Damn, even the empty plate looked nice.


5 more important friends to meet.
Book my slots and I will book yours ;)


Wednesday, December 10, 2008
[[cui!!]]

So.
Dear came over my house and be my Maria for the day :)

My table had never been so clean before.
Now, I got space to put my mac + 1 large area to do work.
Woohoo!

He was so damn horrified at the dust my stuff collected through the years.
Hahahahaha.
Oh yeah, and he was disgusted as to how fast the water turned grey when the dirty cloth went into the pail.
I am so happy I disgust people bleh!
Not too bad lor, no very thick layers of dust.

Dear also helped me packed my old books and papers.
Yay! One more compartment put my notes :)


I repaid you enough lor. Stop complaining. I didn't get any today :(
Thanks dear for a day of hard work, you kinda deserve the Shokudo treat again :)



Anyway, we played Keyquest as usual.


SEE!! CUI CODESTONE!!!
A codestone named after WM and SH, worth 19K. Hmm, their value so little ?



Oh yes, I QUIT MY JOB TOO!!
(Okay, it sounded wrong. How can I quit the job without even working a single day.)
Seemed ridiculous for me to work for a week, 10 hours a day and get a pay that is so much lower than what I achieved in a day.
Which reminded me, I have never seen so much money in my bank acc before. Let me go update my bank book and keep as memory :)
This is a mighty huge motivation to close more deals. Come on people, email me~!!!


Ok, bedtime!


Monday, December 08, 2008
[[^^]]

Spent the day at Dear's house......





Playing Keyquest!!




Loads of screaming and yelling and groaning and moaning when random events happened or when we missed the treasure chest. ( Psssssssttttttttt, teeheehee =P )
Kinda we wasted quite a substantial amount of water today too :)


But it was all in the name of fun!
It's holidays lor~~~~

Anyway, the poor idiot just borrowed 0.9mil from me! OMG!
I am a poor millionaire now :(
You still owe me 200K hor!
All because I tempted him (again) about the wonders of Laboratory.


Anyway, with all the free loot from keyquest, it's dress up time!



It's all free stuff hohoho!
Dear gave me the background lalala~

And just for fun...



Marshmallow!!!


I love today! Hee


Sunday, December 07, 2008
[[neohome]]

Here we go again~~


Oooo! New board! It's winter time!




This is my favourite mini game- Nova!!



Oh yes, this is my neohome, so nice !! Brian, our house must be bigger than this hor. A few nice rainbow wouldn't give you bonus points :P



My next week is packed with people meeting. Sheesh
Mon- Tues: Stay over at Sian's
Wed: Isis movie day!
Thurs: Gang's out day
Where should I squeeze Ashyura in + all my packing up. 
Oh dear me.


Anyway, I have a fab news that I shared with dear.
I cannot say it now. Else it will be jinx. Like just now. Like for the UK case, like for the Yemen case. It must take off~~~~~!!!
 

Please let it work through :)


I got this frightful feeling that holidays' about to end soon :S


Saturday, December 06, 2008
[[bolt]]

While I tried to google images of bolt.
I got the Bolt who broke the 100m record for the Olympic.

I mean DISNEY BOLT!!
This is one fat hamster that we couldn't get enough of.


Bolt: What is this red liquid coming from my paw?
Mittens: It's blood.
Bolt: Do I need it?

*slaps head*
It's a good watch for 6 bucks. Not 10 though. Use the students' privilege!! Woohoo!
We ate dinner at The Pasta Shop, not bad, though I still prefer the slightly bland taste of Shokudo. It's too rich for me. (yikes! First sign of getting old)
Then I have my snowball of lemon sherbet at NYDC. Woohoo! Sherbet!!!!!!!!!!!!

Having the company of ZL and the 2 cuister was great too, since we laughed so much the whole day. 


After yesterday, I really needed those laughs to distract me. 
Slightly different from my initial intention but, it was nevertheless a good distraction.


OH OH OH! I SAW MR. DAVID!! I was so god damn happy just now that I whack his elbow. Oops.  His kid son was giving me this horrified look and was totally backing away from me. 
I really missed that GP teacher of mine out of so many teachers who taught me in JC. Yeah, other teachers like Ms Lim and Mrs Sim pushed me towards achieving results and all and believed in my capabilities. But, it's really different with Mr David. I don't remember having a teacher that I liked and truly respected before. Of course I do respect the teachers that I liked, but not at such a high level. There would always be this gap, because I respected him more, but it's a comfortable gap for me. 

Gosh, I missed GP all of a sudden, it's really one of the lessons I highly anticipated back in JC days, because I could have quirky exchanges with Mr. David. I still remembered he willingly open up a classroom for us to study (and blast our music) even though we weren't allowed to. 
I still remembered he patiently marked through all my essays (I threw 5 essays for him to mark ahahaha). He called me a "pai kia" just because I have the washable tattoo from CVD and I rolled up my sleeves"and we liked to tease him about his Chinese =)

Maybe that's why I like Barack Obama. Even ZL agreeed that he has a bit of resemblance to Obama. 

But he's teaching in RP now =(
I don't know when would we see each other next time. 
It's really amazing how people can come into your life so briefly, but leave an impression so deep.

Out of so many years being student, I have never really missed any teacher. 
I missed Mr. David =(
Okay I am just being emo, don't mind me. 



[I still got this feeling that it never quite sink in and history will repeat again as it often does. I am truly hoping that it will be revolutionary this time round. ]

Thank you. You helped me so much through this semester, and like you once said, you are a good listener


Thursday, December 04, 2008
[[cleaned]]

Following my Sis "clear-desk-day", I was throughly influenced to clean mine too. 
I vividly remember my "clean-day" was to happen with someone for, there was a particular trip down the memory lane I'd like to take the person down with.

But it seemed like many other promises made, this had to be broken as well. 


Anyway,
I have turned this mess: 
Into something suitably clean.
There's still a few more drawers and closets to go through, but it's a good start.

I divided my drawers into 3 sections:
Memories, Books, Miscellaneous.

My memory corner would have been slightly fuller if not for the fact that some things were threw away. I have learnt, perhaps from a wrong teacher that memories are but a past, there is no NEED to delve so much into it.

So I disregarded those which gave me promises. 
What nonsense about being my guardian angel, let's face it.
It's really a load of crap. For my guardian angel is suppose to be with me and never against me. 
She/he is suppose to be supportive of me and never talking down to me.
She/He is suppose to guide me, and not leaving me. 

But lately, all I see is a mist around my so-called future.




This was never a need, but a want. If this is truly a want, you will do anything and everything in your power to have it, to hold on to it.


***** I make a bloody big blunder in the previous entry. Pubic phone *smacks head* it's public phone. 

Anyway, the answer to the question:
How many ways are there to make a right turn ?

Wonder Why ?
*****



[[reads]]

Some interesting phrases I came across yesterday while snuggling in my bed reading.

"Several years ago, a group of doctors got together and put forth the theory that each person has a preset level of happiness. According to the set-point theory of happiness, our well-being is basically a matter of genetics.

That means that once we're born, very little can be done to change how happy or sad we're going to be in our lives. Researchers found that, money can't buy happiness. At least not any more than your genetic allocation allows. Education doesn't seem to make a big difference. Nor does getting married and having a family. 

Of course, really bad stuff, or really good stuff was found to affect a person's mood. But only temporarily. 6 months to a year after great tragedy or great fortune, most people are back to their set point allotment of happiness"

If this theory is true, then my statement of recovery within 6 months after a break up is also true :)

Elizabeth Clighorn Gaskell once said " I'll not listen to reason... Reason always means what someone else has got to say" No wonder there are certain people I will never listen to, because they basically force their ideas down on you, even though you may once did that to them. I WILL NOT, AND SHALL NOT LISTEN.

How many ways are there to make a right turn ?
Answer revealed next post =)

"Do you know who Blaise Pascal is ? You know Pascal's law ?
Later in life, Pascal turned to religion. He believed that faith is a sounder guide than reason. 
It has all to do with what you believe in. "
What I understand from here is that something may seems impossible achieve at times, but when put your heart to it, it is actually very achievable. I remembered boss told me to know the "why", and the "how" will come easily to me. It seems that you never have the "why", and you are slowly losing the faith. For a person who accuses other of being full of bullshit reasons, the one who is always guided by reason is you. 

Always safe in your bubble.
You can't stand anyone bursting it, can you ?
Oh but you hope. Sure you do.
You hope that someone could eventually enter your bubble.
But no, it seems that not everyone has been interested in entering after all.
What do you do to the people who are willing ?
You push them away.
You push them away, throwing your judgements at them. 
That in your bubble, bedtime at 1am means bedtime at 1am.
They can't come and go as they please.
Their company is only allowed when you want them to be and they should all be in awe, when your highness comes entering.
They have to be okay with the amount of memories you beseech to them.
That whatever they did was never enough, but whatever you do suffice for a million light years.
When you fucking want someone to change, when did you ever change for them ?
When you want someone to listen to you, when have you ever truly listen to them ?


"It's a disharmonious conjunction of an endotruth and an unrule. An endotruth is what's known inside, but not outside a culture. " So in any case you are lost, you are apparently part of the exotruth.


The last one got me laughing.
"If you can't be with the one you love, why not love the one you're with ?" No, because they don't deserve it. 


Strange how technology is ?
One moment in time, people have to wait for an hour or two for a person to turn up because they have no means to communicate.
Then, there's public phone, it cut short the waiting time to say, half hour. That's only if you are nearby to reach the phone. 
What is it they have after ?
Pager.
You could even leave a message on them.
Then comes handphones. 
What a convenient means for people to communicate now.
You are going to be late?
It's alright, I will leave the house later then.

What is it about people ?
That we can't satisfy all their wants?
Some obnoxious dinosaur forgot about the evolution of this splendid technology, when this very technology was the last straws he used to cling one.
What's that again ?
過河拆橋?
Well put.








Wednesday, December 03, 2008

When I saw this sentence from the book, it hit me hard.




"A lifetime is just not enough to spend with your loved ones"












Why am I the only one who understand what it meant ?
Tantrums were thrown for reasons.
Then again, a person of reasons has never, ever seen that as a reason.








当一個人一無所有的時候,
他的天與地,唯有你獨佔。
当他回到屬於自己的天空,
你,再也不是他的所有。

你的心思,
你的細膩,
你的關心,
對他來說,
一點價值都沒有。

你的脾氣,
你的感受,
你的原因,
早已變成刁蠻任性。

你所要求的耐心,
你所渴望的用心,
你所尋找的知心,
在很久以前就消失了,不見了。




I wrote it? I copied it? You decide.



Turned out a dead thing gave me so much more comfort than a fucking living person could.
How ironic can it get ?



[[...]]

曾幾何時
滔滔不絕
變成
沉默無言?




有些事情,我再也不要去相信了。
走開。
我不要你。
我不需要你關我。
我不用你陪。






走開。


Tuesday, December 02, 2008
[[keyquest]]

Newly discovered game!
Neopet's Keyquest!! Urgh, we have missed so much goodies before.

Anyway, seeing that both of us are giam beng, dear and I worked together!
We took turns to win the keys and the NPs. Hahahaha!
Ahem, you OWE me one GOLD key =P

Actually he's more giam beng than me. Coz I already got all the keys first and he refused to let me win twice in a roll. *Tsk tsk* I think it's that ego thing. Ah wells. I was excited over the game, so I couldn't care less. 




Neopets has really surpassed itself in these few years. I shall get my kids to play next time!
I can just picture this scene:
Instead of a decent monopoly game, we are battling each other online. Wahaha.

Oh yes, my phone is in the hospital for a few days, people please try not to call/ sms me so much. Pretty lazy to check the spare phone. :)

Keyquest rock! Weehee!