An Apple And The Pasture

Sunday, November 30, 2008
[[abuse]]

It was meant to be a gift....

But it turned out otherwise.

Poor poor marshmallow.

To think you suffered more than just punches from me.

Ahahahaha!

[[up!]]

Okay, it's finally up.

After emailing those manufactures and such my blogshop is finally up.

(Er... you mean you have another 1 ?)

Right, this is totally brand new stuffs and not some auntie clothes ;)

Miss C (click here la!)

Let's get some shopping done!

Spread to your friends yeah ?

Cheers!

Saturday, November 29, 2008
[[yippee]]

The shitty month of November is over!!
Finally!

Went straight to meet my 2 lovely mates from my gang after the paper since I got a feeling that nothing would surface with ISIS peeps.
And I turned out to be right coz..
WM - got meeting!
SH- SPO stuff
Rick- Sleep

ZL was totally sian diao ahahaha.

Anyway, we played tarots again, though this time with a laugh.
Things like will thailand enter a state of emergency, is the world an RNA world 1st.

And it's answer to "Which came 1st, egg or chicken"
was egg!

Why ? Because there must be pregnancy.
Never mind, i totally have no idea what that meant.

Dear came down after his paper :)
We watched Four Christmases!
Loved the "special" seats in Cathay as usual.

Could have watched Madagascar II, but we were cheapos and we wanted to save.
Four Christmases was obviously not a perfect substitute but heck la, I just wanted to do something that's what people would do post exams.

Dinner at s11 was superb.
I finally got to eat my stingray!

Today..
I spent the day at dear's house, doing my own stuff, sleeping and more importantly, see how no life he was.

He had to complete his cancer lab report. Awwww so sad :P

Whatever the case it, it was nice to finally have our own time together :)
We haven't meet since school ended. *horrors* is kinda like the France-thing-cut-short-by-a-month

Righty, since I haven't seen Marshmallow for a month too, so I did all I could to...

Torture it.
Muahaha.

Don't worry, he's still as cute.
Except..

He had to hide his face for a while, because of some bruises and all.
He's still smiling. (Or grimace ? Never mind)

Sunday, November 23, 2008
[[light]]

I really didn't know where to start.

Quite a number of things happened during the past couple of days, it didn't seem right starting at point A or B or C. Ok, you get my drift.

Then again,

"If the mindset is right, everything is right."

Let's see.

I didn't know who to side this time round, but as much as I like to defend the person, there was no grounds for me to.

He/She was like what Tin said, a loser.

Maybe on the surface, the battle was won, but the stigma "loser" would forever be there.

That aside.

Microbiology got me a little blinded for the couple of days.

I lost sight of why I was studying for the exam, why am I even sitting here touching the irksome blue file.

I guessed I wasn't wrong in placing you as one of my kakis. (The ranking still doesn't make a difference =p)

I listened and went with your suggestions, and really, studying was so much easier today.

The lights that went "ting ting ting" weren't the only thing I wanted to thank you for.

I thank you, for your willingness to talk to me about the past, though it was a little late, but it came. Thank you boss.

Next, to Jason and Luppy, I am so sorry for always going AWOL on msn, sounding so distracted.

Things will pick up soon, I promise.

To dear,

Hahaha! Thanks for letting Marshmallow on Skype even though it's big fat ass occupied most of your table. Cute things should go together bleh! That's incidentally my new specs!

I was taking zi lian photos with it, shall upload and scare you guys after exam, just when you guys were relieved that the horrors were over. =P

Speaking of which, Li Hui sent me this link.

The game by doritos only works between 6pm-6am.

Kinda it had be in fashion for some time but yeah, I was a little slow in catching on.

http://www.hotel626.com

From reviews, it was a scary but exciting game.

I hum ji, so I didn't dare to play. Those who played, tell me about it yea ?

Lastly, I have finally made my decision.

I wouldn't be going to Sian's house to do tarot, but perhaps just to enjoy each other's presence.

My worries and hesitations should not stop me from making the decision that I had wanted.

And heck, the obstacles coming my way shall be conquered.

Knowing the unknown but not having the courage to live it is just a plain waste of life. (I suddenly feel so intelligent. I thought of this sentence ok!)

I shall send my yes to ABP reply after exam.

Friday, November 21, 2008

I trained myself not to look out of the window, to expect the expected, to...

But I didn't know how to train myself to stop feeling those waves of disappointment.

Thursday, November 20, 2008
[[thanks]]

謝謝你。

你成功了。

成功擾亂我的思訊。

成功讓我無法集中精神。

成功打亂我這幾天所建立的意志。

成功，非常成功。

我現在到底是該向誰興師問罪？

是你，

還是那個忌諱的字眼？

無論如何，你多少也幫上一點忙。

還是該謝你的。

Disappointed, to the say the very least.

No, not about 203. It has nothing to do with today's paper.

In the bigger picture we call life, there are still people bothered by things so small.

If words were really lethal, I would have died a million times and flunk a billion more.

灑脫.

Forget it, it's innate.

Nothing I say will drive home the message.

I give up.

One can't simply talk sense into such people.

For those who have only a couple of more papers left, and who like me felt that the past few papers weren't their personal best:

Olivia Ong : I'll move on.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008
[[alas!]]

If real life lottery is as easy as this...

Hahaha!

Back to reality!

My dad sms-ed me must “旗開得勝” on my first paper.

I thought I did a great job 舉白旗.

Like it's going to help us in the future to remember what gene turned fibroblast to brown fats.

I thought the basis of physio is HOMEOSTASIS.

Which part of that is homeostasis ?

Nevermind.

I shan't curse the paper too much. (nor the prof ?)

It's over.

4 more to go.

9 more days.

Oh yes!

My swapped items arrived :)

Joy in the midst of darkness!

[[prelude]]

This totally showed how I am feeling.

Double, triple checked and even with Si Min with the examination time. I kept thinking it was in the morning. -.- Somehow having this extra bit of time killed off some steam. Irritating.

But I have the sunlight "raining" down on me, so that's great :)

Blog surfed awhile and is like, everyone is finishing their exams soon.

Sian finishes on 19!!

Mar on 24.

I think SM, Thong thong they all on the 25.

Ahhhhhhhhhhh!

I STILL GOT 9.

NINE

MORE DAYS.

Okay nevermind.

I started late.

Physio!

[[battle!]]

I am so excited and nervous that I couldn't sleep.

Tomorrow is my 1st paper! (Like finally -,-)

I am going to school! After about 3 weeks of disappearance.

So! I managed to include dear, his bro, Wee Meng and Roy into my Levi's spree.

Hahaha! And they all selected the same thing in different color.

$30 plus for Levi's shorts cheap right!

Ahahaha.

Okay.

I ought to sleep.

Later cannot think.

My 1st paper shall be, will be, and confirm is a good start for me!

I CAN DO IT!

COZ I WANT IT!

AND BECAUSE I WANT IT,

WILL

GET

WOO!

Sunday, November 16, 2008
[[zes]]

Zes, dutch word for six looked like "zest"
"zest" totally described me today.
Full of energy and enthusiasm.
Maybe waking up at 9am does that to people.

Or maybe being consultant today for a module I didn't take made me high.

Or maybe because I MIGHT be purchasing a Levi's at 29.95 USD that did it.

After harassing my ahem. "consultant"

Or maybe my swapped items are coming to me soon made me like that.

OH MAN! *anticipating hahahha*

Anyway!
So I was too high today.
Until at night I spent all my energy.
Including the residual volume. Sounds familiar... oh ya residual volume + vital capacity = total lung capacity.
Therefore I was teeerreeedd to the max.
I decided to have my mask therapy early.
Blissed!

Sian.
My exams have not start.
My mates' are ending.
What the shit.

One more day! And then it will be start of the end.
Yay!!!

[[五]]

Tuesday this time I would have just started on my paper, hopefully finishing up on my MCQ.
*fluttering with excitement*

What the hell.
*Quivers with fear* sounds more apt.

Like I've mentioned to a lucky few.
We are now in a crucial 2 days!!!
Last lap for Physio!!
Maintain the stamina people!

I mentioned ?
I have nice people around me :)

Dear went through 3 years of physio exam with me.
Jason bought me HP!! (ok, we are still debating whether am I to pay or not)
Lup said my dp is nice! (weeeeee~)

And my cousin is suppppppppppeeeeeerrrrr nice.
He refused to let me go for supper with him because I shoot him.
"PRESENT undergrad has no life. You live with your books."
Irritating. Just because I reminded him he's an ex-grad.

Fine lor!

Anyhow, these people boost my morale once in a while.
Okay back to MAP = TFR * CO
And.... that..
Okay I shall stop scaring people.

Friday, November 14, 2008
[IV]

With 3 days left for me to cramp as many physiology content as possible I am officially in the tense mode.

Amidst of all the studying I am starting to doubt my abilities.
Start to doubt whether did I really remember what I have read for the past few days.

Urgh.
I have to clear these bloody thoughts.

Bedtime stories have to be put aside temporarily.
I do hope I have enough time to catch up.

It's funny that I want exams to end pronto.

Because mine have not even started.

Right.
I am all geared up for exams.
I know my stuff.
I can be freaking Hermonie Granger.
I trust my abilities
I trust the cards.

I trust the fact that...

I ALWAYS GET WHAT I WANT.
SO YES! I CAN GET THEM THIS TIME ROUND!
Chargggggggggggggeeeeeeeeeeee!!

[[three]]

Day 3.

I have successfully won over "heart" Woohoo!

BP heart BP.

1) means I love blood pressure

2) means me, heart and blood pressure belong to 1 entity.

Weeeeee.

Physio textbook is by far the best textbook I ever read.

If not for lack of time, I would be reading it as a bedtime story.

Ah wells.

Oh yes, my pretty earphones came today with my masks :)

My masks occupied the 1 whole section in my fridge.

Facial therapy starts 27 Nov!

Joined ON spree! (~again ahahaha.)

2 bedtime chapter down!

Just a few more to go!

Weeeeeeee~~

Wednesday, November 12, 2008
[[II]]

Day 2 of my new found discipline.

It seemed that Discipline woke up late today, but "Temptation" was already up before me.

Nonetheless I managed to complete 201, with some random checks on my mails. Dang.

I learnt the only way to resist temptation was to stop lingering on the thoughts.

That required some willpower on my part, which I felt was unnecessary if I had not got involved in some activities. Ah wells.

The "Heart" had severely weakened my heart and I shall find a way to strengthen my heart muscle tomorrow because a short term solution like increasing blood volume wouldn't help.

No bedtime reading today because I didn't managed to conquer heart. Damn shit.

I have to read religiously, starting tomorrow.

On a brighter note, I have 1 successful swap and 1 pending swap so that's thumb's up for the day.

Oh yes, I am selling my new MJs because I brought the wrong design. Goooooo my sale's list and see okay ? (Stop sniggering at some of the fashion mistakes or some ah-ma clothes my mom gave me)

It's important at this stage not to be complacent and assumed that you knew quite a number of things.

While this helped in processing the lecture notes, it would not help in the long run.

So I urged my friends not to be like me.

Always treat yourself as an idiot (only you have this privilege to) and explain to yourself each and every diagram on the lecture notes.

Don't just flip flip flip and say "Aiya, I know la"

Hahahas, that's something I learnt from this couple of days.

It's hard forcing myself to read all the slides.

Restraining from saying "I KNOW THIS! SKIP SKIP SKIP"

I done it in some situations :) yay!

Tomorrow marks the start of Dear's exam.

Neuro wouldn't kill your neurons :)

People use 80% of the brain energy for glutamate processing, you use 90%

So you can do well!

Good luck Dear!

[[7674]]

It's 0016 hours.
I should not be here.
I should be sleeping.

Temptation won and I am waiting for a download to finish.

What I should not have done, but did today:
1) Check emails during bedtime reading.
2) Linger a tad longer after lunch.
3) Go on Youtube to listen to Emi Fujita.
4) Attempt to go to Imeem to listen to Corner With Love OST

What I should have done and also had been done today :)
1) Finish all the lectures in BS204
2) Start on doing the quiz and tutorial for 204
3) Even started on last year paper
4) Bedtime story

Something extra I did:
1) Start on my bedtime story after bathing even though I scheduled that time for break.
So proud of myself :)

My discipline was back with me today, working along side with me.
Somehow it's presence made me realized that I have been missing it since last week.
This is one silent companion that I will need through the 3 weeks and I know this silent companion will follow me through :)

Tuesday, November 11, 2008
[[tarotting]]

I am so glad to have a friend who is into stuffs which normal people tend not to venture into or don't bother to.
Those who might not know, I am positively worried about exams.
So a wee bit of tarots into the middle of night helped.
A lot.

I was lucky to be hearing positive comments over and over again, getting cards like the one above. (Sian only mentioned this, ah wells)

All was well, until I asked "Can don't study Textbook for 202"

The card design is nice right ?
It's the Devil.
Upright or reverse manner doesn't change the fact that it signifies negativity.
Being a major card means it can pretty much cause a big dent in whatever success I may have.

To put in simpler terms: I have to read MB ref. Otherwise I wouldn't get the grade I wanted.

And today (until now) I have been consciously following what advices that were given.
It's not because it's tarot and that's why I followed.
It's because they are general advices and so I followed :)

Which means:
I SHOULD FREAKING STOP PHOTOSHOPPING AND CHECKING MY EMAILS EVERY HOUR.

Which also means some sacrifice on dear's and my part.
We have to talk less at night.
We can't skype as we study.
He has to help me with PYP =P

But it's ok, we can stick to each other for holidays. (Yay! Can't wait!)

Noticed quite a change in me today.
Something positive :)

In less than 3 weeks I would be freed of all these exams stress
In less than 3 weeks I would be able to eat my stingray
In less than 3 weeks this sem would be over

Why not spend this couple of weeks more displaying sheer determination ?

I shall post daily updates on my endurance and determination skills.
Just so I know I grow "spiritually" (kinda a wrong word, but the tarot used this word...) each day towards the end of exams.

I will remember:
“Reach high, for stars lie hidden in your soul. Dream deep, for every dream precedes the goal.”

I can get the grades I want.
Because I know I can.
Because I have worked for it since the start.
Nothing can and nothing shall stand in my path.
Obstacles will be eliminated.
Oppose and you will die.
Rah!

CBP do it.
Get it.
Overcome it.
Win it.
You can do it!

Sunday, November 09, 2008
[[photoshop]]

Right.
I have to throw my computer into the dungeons soon.

Now I am fascinated over Photoshop.
This is bad.
It takes at least an hour plus to complete one photo.
That means 1 lecture time.
Shit, shit, shit.

I changed my blogskin :)
Ok, just the picture. Temporarily.
So for those who "saw ghost" refrain from coming lalala. I don't care.

Anyway, here's what I have done.
They are super unnatural, but who cares ?

So this is my first attempt. Everything sucks, I even forgot to shrink myself.

Then after several attempts at other things, I thought I was able to take on this again. But this time round it was too darn bright.

Isn't this so neoprint-like?

I am pretty sure by this time you guys are sian-ed of my face already.

Find this background familiar ? Ya, I think it was in one of my entries, except that there was a chio-er model.

As you can see, I love stars now. So nice!!!
So that was my craze amidst studying for 202.
Haven't been gathering my drive these few days, weekends made it worst.
Urgh.
I need the power.
POWER!!!

Thursday, November 06, 2008
[[OMG]]

I was just mentioning about the new TW show on channel U and I asked Dear why didn't he finished watching the other time.

Dear: Because disc jammed
Me: Why never watch online ?
Dear: Because I don't know can watch online.

When did he watch the show ?
Last year sem 1.
OMG.

We really do have generation gap sometimes.

[[study]]

It's Day 1 of the study plan.
It's working somehow.
I think.
Probably.
Most of the time.

My wills were weakened.
I used to remove MSN from dock.
Now I had to remove Safari as well.
Must be because of the earphones thingy.
I checked my mails like 90% of the time.
Sheesh.

Okay I will try my bestest tomorrow.
It's hard to get excited over notes you have read and read over and over again for the past semester, knowing that the questions wouldn't be as direct as filling in the blanks.

I walked past a gift shop today and I saw different Mashmallow strains.
Made me missed my OWN Mashmallow. (Ahem, MINE)

Mago and Marshmallow are friends :)

Marshmallow has got this fat tummy that Mago can sleep on

Okays! I shall go talk to my Marshmallow now :)

*I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare* ( Yes it is)

[[tagged]]

Normally I choose to ignore.. but since I never done this for a long time...

1. Person who tagged you is?
Little birdy told me it was Beth (Happy birthday again :D )

2. Your relationship with him/her.
I am her Human CC lol.

3. Five impressions of HER.
Irritating! Nah! Shares my love to shop online. Sometimes go crazy with me. At times motivate me, though I think it's the other way round more. Okay la, I used more than just adjectives, discount!

4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you.
Hmm... HMMMM... Not so much of doing, but mere words, they are enough :)

5. Most memorable thing she had said to you?
I love my human CC :)

6. If SHE become your lover, you will?
*bangs wall*

7. If she becomes your lover, thing she has to improve on would be?
Skip.

8. If she become your enemy, you will?
Kinda very not possible leh

9. What is it you want to tell them now?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

10. Your overall impression is?
AHHH Beth!! YOU ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY!!

11. How do you think people around you will feel?
About?

12. What do you love about yourself?
Everything lalala, I am zi lian

13. What do you hate about yourself?
Er. I said everything in Q12.

14. The most ideal person you want to be.
Its more of a mixture of a few people. Centrifuge?

15. For people who love and care for you, say something to them.
Ok I will. Not type here. Bleh!

16. People to tag:
I shall spare people the agony of describing me hah! Okay. Maybe just one.
SEOW SI MIN YOU HAVE TO DO! TO DESTRESS! YEA!!!
Nonetheless, I kinda have to write 10 persons name down to complete the following:
1. Dear
2. Luppy
3. Uncle
4. Marilyn
5. Irene
6. JS
7. Si Min
8. Derrick
9. Zhao Liang
10. Boss

17. Who is 6 having a relationship with?
Tarot cards

18. Is 9 a male or female?
Hmm.. He does have XY chromosomes.

19. If 8 and 10 are together, would it be a good thing?
LOL.

20. What is 2 studying about?
How to protect Singapore 101.

21. When was the last time you had a chat with 3?
Feels like a long time

22. What kind of music band does 8 like?
Erm.. All sorts. Even Canton which I don't listen ahahah.

23. Does 1 have any siblings?
Yes.

24. Will you woo 3?
Nah! I have 1. 1 woo me lalala.

25. How about 7?
Si Min is my ex husband lor. I don't eat hui tou grass :P

26. Is 4 single?
Nah! She's with Corinna

27. What is the surname of 5?
Chen.

28. What is a hobby of 10?
Read financial stuffs and constantly empowering himself

29. Does 5 and 9 get along well?
They might make a crazy couple, just so that we got shows to watch.
Oh well, they don't know each other in reality

30. Where is 2 studying at?
He is learning to protect Singapore

31. Talk about something for 1?
I talked A LOT about 1 until people get sick of it. Hahahas. Only he doesn't

32. Have you tried developing feelings for 8?
*Brusts out laughing*

33. Where does 9 live?
Eunos ?

34. What colour does 4 like?
Er.. Meh meh colours.

35. Are 1 and 5 best friends?
Nah. But it's good to see 5 suan 1.

36. Does 6 have any pets?
No and no.

37. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world?
Si min, you answer that.

38. What is 10 doing now?
Empowering or learning or teaching.

So fun~

Tuesday, November 04, 2008
[[better]]

To those who have showered your care and concern, thank you.

I am feeling better now, though I have seen better days.

It's funny how some people were so worried when I am down with this bug.

Like my parents.

My dad even took a half day off just to take care of me.

It's funny how I am remind of this wedding vow, despite it not being achieved.

It's funny that I should read ah li's blog just when I was sick.

Despite this being a much more major illness, I complained less.

It seemed though, some had underestimated the power of this infection.

Maybe because I didn't milk for what it's worth ?

It's alright.

...to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, until we are parted by death...

Was I wanting a little too much ?

No.

I don't think so.

To my concerned friends.

Try your very best not to fall sick now.

It's horrible.

Monday, November 03, 2008
[[sick]]

It seemed like a trend.

I remembered vividly I had gastrointestinal infection last year, sem 1.

That was when I forced myself to finish the stupid 205 assignment.

Today, I was diagnosed with gastrointestinal infection again.

AGAIN!!!

Ahhhh!

I reckoned there must be inconsiderate people who went for the big walk yesterday.

Either that or there was poison in my lunch or dinner.

Urgh.

I spent the night tossing and turning because of the stomach pain.

I spent the day vomiting and trying not to vomit.

I spent the whole afternoon sleeping :)

This virus was sure a potent one.

I hadn't had fever since... JC.

38.5!! It scared me too.

The medicine which the doc gave was effective!

Cos I was sweating like mad when I tried to sleep.

The next paragraph might "induce" some people to whack me.

Being sane, I thought of 201 and 202.

How the fever kicked in, much thanks to my immune response that led to endogenous pyrogen secretion, how this thing reseted the hypothalamus set point.

Which bacteria caused the GI infection, though I know very well it was a virus. Hey! I wasn't given antibiotics.

Right.

Stupid virus made me skipped a day of school.

I have a lecture on Kidneys lor.

I will get well!

Die virus die!

[[marina]]

Off we go to the newly open Marina Barage and we were joined by loads of people:

After a grueling 5 km walk.... (ok, we cheated) ... we reached Marina Barage!!

Now you know how flat it is.

I love the water droplet :) Okay, abit not zhun, not my fault! Dear said it was ok.

The finish line!! With so many of my water droplet~~~

We went up to the rooftop, it felt like ADM with a city sky line.

The last final pino picture.

Instead of squeezing with stinky people up on the bus, we chose to take the water taxi! (Just think duck tours)

So fun and it's free! :)

Dear also treated me Shokudo (I wonder why hmmmm)

This took my mind off exams for a bit, so yep! I was glad I went, and I was glad to have such lovely company :)