An Apple And The Pasture

Tuesday, July 29, 2008
[[fallen]]

2.52.00 am 28 07 2008
I have finally fallen.

You were right in saying it was all an act. All an act to be normal

No longer do I have a wish to hear some words, for I no longer knew what words I wanted to hear.

Back at work showed me how thic'k a mask I had put on for today.
And like the phantom in the mask, no one wished to see that mask to be taken off.
Not even the one he was so sure of, whom he thought wouldn't mind at all.

I guessed Im just too much to be handled...
Too much...
...

Sunday, July 27, 2008
[[company]]

Went for the wake, and yep got that sort of nightmare again at night.
Thankfully not that serious.

Not sure how to post about yesterday...
It was a bit last minute, but yes thank you.

Maybe you were acting.
Acting?
Acting normal. I dunno la.. or maybe it's just Pre-school-syndrome.

I hope it is.
I know it isn't.

Thanks.

Friday, July 25, 2008
[[thong]]

BMS clique gathering.
It's been some time since I last saw time.
It would be some time before I would interact with them ba.
I'd like to thank them for including me for I didn't even have the intention of making friends in class except the existing ones.
I really have to say... BMS clique is so cute! Hahaha.

Anyway, we went Seoul Garden to celebrate Thong thong's birthday.
Loads of stuff to talk with Thong thong as usual.
Went shopping and as usual, nothing fitted.
NOTHING.
Okay, thats some moolahs saved.

Would have to attend a wake tomorrow.
Though I didn't exactly know this relative of mine, but I guess it would bring back P6 memories.

On a side note:
" It irked me"
"Why ? It's NOYB"
"I know, but I don't know why"
"It's like why do things that you said you wouldn't ? No matter the reasons."
It finally ended with...

"You think too much"
Maybe.
I still hated it.
No matter how small the matter seemed to be.
No matter it would be a "sooner or later" sort of scenario.
It should be a later thing, because there's all the more reason for it.

Thanks for the talk.

在意。。。

有時只會讓自己心煩。

甚至心痛。

Thursday, July 24, 2008
[[settlers]]

And it's Holland V-ing with the gang today!
So many cool restaurants
Sheesh!
And the Coffee Club.. OMG! I want goooooo~~~

Anyway, we went to the cui cui Settlers
Really very cui.
Couldn't exactly stand it
But things were made fun with the presence of the gang ^^

Better news when I got home
I got a mail from...

For...

Also there's my tee from ON.
Weee! Fab day!

Meeting BMS peeps for Seoul Garden tomorrow
Plus my Fancl MCO
YAY!

Wednesday, July 23, 2008
[[haul]]

Finally replenished my potter's series.
My book 4 had been split into 3 parts and I could only find my middle section.

Gonna get book 5 for free much thanks to youswop.com!
Hohoho.

So I have gotten book 4 and 6, still thinking of buying 1 and 2. Shall ask my sis for her opinion.

So my haul over the holiday:
- Threadless tees
- Old navy tees
- MNG tees
- EDC tees
- Adidas shoes
- Contact lenses
- m)phosis slippers
- jesse girl's cosmetics
- bb creams
- pink dress from korea
- fireworks.sg

I still need
- fancl MCO

I still want
- Endless

Hahahaha!

New blog song!
Nice right! (say yes)

Okays, i shall go be bookworm now!

Tuesday, July 22, 2008
[[farewell]]

And so I went out for an unexpecting shopping trip round Orchard.
Saw a pair of AE shorts that was already size ZERO and it was loose. Damn.

HP books at Borders were cui, shall just buy from Popular/Harris.

Happy birdday Jeff =)

Farewell Jason!
I want huan huan from BJ =P

Felt abit (like i mentioned to Jason) apologetic to him for like not talking much with him days towards his departure.
Didn't really expect a friendship to bloom from a short 5 days event work.
Oh yeah. not to mention noob questions to answer =P

Bon voyage! See you in 6 mths time ;)

[[outing]]

First Mira outing to pitstop.
Photos were cui, so shan't put ya ?

Anyway not much to update except that some people just made me wanna slap them.
It's bad enough that I didn't have a good impression at senior's camp
Then they deteriorated.
My god.

Okay, the next question is who is the person ?
Change your question to: Who ARE the people. Makes more sense that way.

Thankfully I wouldn't be seeing much of them.
Brian called me evil. hahaha, but somehow I was still hoping =P

Ok!
Some pictures of me in the camp =P (of coz put my face la, then what for I blog =.= )

Mira peeps

Mira again

Slacker SAs ahaha

De Te Ner! ISIS 招牌動作!

Mummy evelyn (ahaha she looked damn funny n cute)

Cuister 1 - cuisiase-cuister 2

Cuister and me

Derrick and me

My Lao gonnggggg~~~~

ISIS guys, sheesh Zhao Liang died

WM is damn cute!!

Ok! I zi lian enough =)

This camp showed me how much I missed ISIS.
Really a lot.
I don't think anyone, anyone at all can fight with Karen's blurness and her care for us.
Or how any SAs can really be like ISIS's SA who have done so much things for us.
Not to mention, how appreciative we were for our seniors who have done so much for us.

I love ISIS!

Monday, July 21, 2008
[[^^]]

Thanks dear.

On a side note, this girl looks damn chio.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Why the fuck hell did I wake up so early?

When ?

In sleep, where you sink youself into deepest oblivion

Saturday, July 19, 2008
[[over]]

OPNA came to an end yesterday.
I still sorely missed the time in ISIS.
Maybe because I was still a freshie and everything was fresh to me.

Shall just wait for the pictures.

Yet, this was not to say that MIRA was bad.
MIRA was like a fusion of ISIS and Osiris.
So we got the " Most N2" group award.

Reached home round evening time. And I...
- Flung my things in the room ( 2 bloody goody bags was really sickening)
- Threw the keys on my desk
- Flattened my tofu and started crying.

It was the same emotion I experienced on Tues when I reached home.
Luppy summed it up for me:

luppy - Only by working as a team can we always push for the best, with one heart and one mind says: (1:34:48 PM)
u want low ppl
~b0o p|+~ For it's just a while till dawn. Just don't know... says: (1:34:55 PM)
i wan normal ppl
luppy - Only by working as a team can we always push for the best, with one heart and one mind says: (1:34:56 PM)
or rather, u wan normal ppl to escape from
~b0o p|+~ For it's just a while till dawn. Just don't know... says: (1:35:08 PM)
normal ppl to esc to

Really felt like no one was/had been/ is here for me.
Still feeling that now, though Luppy came in the nick of time.

Whatever the case was... I...
Didn't took out my lenses when I fell asleep.
Thank goodness the lenses didn't stick on my eye, or worse infected my eyes.

Looking on the bright side,
My cookie reached me
I can collect my bb cream when school reopens
Threadless finally reached SG

Such irony, I only have material "wealth" to look forward to.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008
[[home]]

Home Sweet Home!!!
Nah! 3 more days to go, and I am bored already

Decided to take a breather today.

Shan't comment anything about the camp.
Though yep, I have decided to open (or rather, already opened) a facebook account in view of the camp.

That's about it.
I stank.

Let me pom pom before I go out.

Monday, July 14, 2008
[[ultimate]]

We are a pair of ultimate people.

1) We sleep over skype
2) We play monopoly over skype
3) We argue over skype
4) We smile, laugh, pout, cry over skype
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Today's wakeup call was through sms.
(This's for my own memory, you guys can stop reading from here)
1. wake up!!! u PIG!!! (who the hell starts with pig in the 1st message ? $%£%^^)
2. WAKE UP!!!
3. PIG WAKE UP!!!
4. wake up!!!
5. wakey wakey (THIS should be the first message)
6. Faster wake!!!
7. WAKE !!!!!!!!!!!
8. PIG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
9. WAKE UP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10. wake up!!!
11. ooi a lot of sms le.. wake up.. (wahahaha, he gets tired =P)
12. wake up la... I even called u la..

Okay, before you start thinking I am reallly a pig, I am NOT.
I was brushing my teeth already.

Add in my ultra loud nokia ringtone to this "tweep tweep" mix, the incessant ringing of the phone could rise the dead.

Righty!
Off the camp!
Miss ya dear!

Sunday, July 13, 2008
[[tired]]

I guessed I was drained from yesterday.
Even ordering my nephews around (so that I could have seconds of peace here and there) was tiring. Partly because I had to think of creative ways to order them around.

I didn't know whether does that reason suffice with regards to my eons ago post about how I regretted not spending even more time with my brother when he's younger. I guessed not.

Looking at what my cousin did in order to make his whole family live under one roof, his perception of what's a family and what one should do for his/her family... that's something not all Singaporeans would be able to do.

For one thing there's this money VS relationship thing.
For another there's this money VS time thing.

Ah wells it's difficult to explain what I have experienced yesterday, so I shan't really elaborate.

The point of this entry was.
I was really really burned out.
And so I ended up sleeping till 4pm.
Not exactly shocking when I slept at 3am lor.

It's been sometime since I concussed till this late.
Damn, it would be even later if not for my mother screaming at me.

And the fact that someone's in the room.
I hate the feeling of waking up and there's someone wide awake in the room.
Felt like you cannot have the private moments to yourself when you just woke up.

Damn shitty.

[[nephews]]

Right... so I went for precamp.
Loads of thoughts rushed back to those good old days in ISIS.
Where Simin and I sparkled off the hi-ness since day 0.

Freshies...
Have the potential, but yeap just give them time.

Some things weren't done appropriately, but ah wells, I am just here to help.

Went off early, I thought to another heaven.
Turned out my nephews were like super glue.
Had to go and hide for a hour to regain all the energy used during pre camp.

He's my fav nephew - Ryan! (Ahem, Roy. HAHAHAHA)

Random: I am still seriously impressed with my Viewty even now.

Oh yes, pictures from ISIS outing.
Bah! lazy to edit.

Friday, July 11, 2008
[[3nd]]

Yesterday marked the end of my work in Sony (NOW SHE FINALLY SAID THE PLACE lol.)
Officially.

I would work part time during school days though.
Makes no sense, yes ?

Anyway, seeing that it was my "last day", the full timers gave me treats.
So throughout my 1 plus month in Sony I've gotten:

Drinks from Steven
Meals from Chris and
Meals from Nick
Oh yeah, staff discounts from Jason.

Yesterday was also the first and last supper I would have eaten with them too.
So cool! 2 cab rides home for free!
I love sony ahahaha.

Today...
ISIS OUTING!
Watched Hancock earlier on, found the movie not bad.
Couldn't seem to find the work for it so.. go watch it la hor.

Seriously think isis ppl are siao-on
And we went Coffee Club as a "night-cap"
It's been long since I last watched a movie and drink my fav. soda.
Oh yeah, it's been long to dish about some people too.
LOL, a little "spiderman" time wouldn't hurt.

Tomorrow is gang badminton time!
I shall shit now.
*poofs*

Tuesday, July 08, 2008
[[chortles]]

Oh the despair!!!
My ELF went OOS after a month of wait =(
Drugstore sells it at a higher price =(

Nevermind.

Oh yes! I got another compliment feedback weeee~
I just realize is quite easy to get feedbacks.
1) Be very busy, bring out loads of hps for customers to see and they will assume you did hard work
2) Talk a lot
3) Do as much sai kang as you possibly can.
4) Tada! Feedback!

Told manager I worked till today (turns out is tomorrow, nevermind! More money!)
He just said: 寵你沒有用的。
Ｉsaid：又不是我要的。

Told them about the new replacement, a supposedly handsome guy..
In the end...

" Ok, I will call XXX and tell him I don't want the new replacement, you continue working.
And ended up my "no-promise-but-I-will-try-my-best" work on weekends plan became more or less confirmed.

Don't understand why though, I personally thought my sales wasn't that fab.
Oh well. =P

Sunday, July 06, 2008
[[fireworks]]

I was too extreme yesterday with my choice of words. If I have offended you, I'm sorry.
Then again, it brought up the topic on trust.

One too many coincidences.

Fine, I'm tired of thinking about it already.
I thought I could trust you after I distant myself form you.
Then I realize the reason why I distant myself.
Please.
You are not USA.
Stop acting like a Big Brother.
It irked me.
Then.
Now.
I guessed after today... from now on to.

Ahahah, so freak ambiguous. I shan't waste time explaining myself, it's gonna cause unnecessary misunderstandings and all, but heck I wouldn't care anymore, coz my conscience is clear.

Nonetheless, this couldn't dampen my feelings today!

Since yesterday was the day the American sailors celebrated USA July 4th, we took a USA picture!

Whining helped.
When I whined that nobody company me to watch fireworks.
I got a truckload of people.
Literally truckload.

My aunt.
Her 3 sons + 2 daughter in laws
3 Nephews.
2 Friends.
My brother mom and dad.

Woo.

and the whole carpark was ours until... the last 3 minutes ? That's when the foreign people came.

Hahah Yay! Ryan came!
So happy =)

Then we had a sleepover after the fireworks.
Brian's like one of the online participant
Hahaha.

We played tarots!
Hahah, all sorts of silly questions.
First we tested the cards and see if it's awake.
Everytime without fail, the emperor card would surface when I asked how am I like.

Okay, I shall type the summary of some of the answers, in any case they happen to come true next time. Ahaha.

What's my past life like?
1. Very very very vengeful
2. In leadership position.
3. Willing to try new things.
4. Does co-ops when it benefits me a lot
5. Lived in times of war and turmoils
6. Went emo towards the later part of life.
7. Surprisingly there's loads of loyal people to me.

So we were initially guessing that I am from the 春秋戰國時代 but, so far vengeful people they didn't like.
So they came to a conclusion that I am Hilter.
hohoho evil!

How would my future husband be like?
1. He's rich, but because he got too rich, so he kinda spoilt me. (like 1 burberry everyday rich ? ahahah)
2. He's famous (i think)
3. Successful obviously
4. Loves me loads =)
5. Has very strong will and determination.
6. Very optimistic
7. Willing to admit his mistakes.
8. Currently, there's a separation (at this point, dear said it's him already)

How would my married life be like
1. So I will be very very very careless with my money spending them everywhere. (or is it his money nevermind!)
It was here that I mentioned to Dear that he had to buy me a De Beers diamond ring as I will be spending loads of his money initially
2. Then I became very spendthrift, helping my husband to save. (sheesh, so not me) aka meant I became an auntie. No no no, spendthrift tai tai, I reckoned that's when I have kids.
3. We will live happily ever after, good health, still very much in love with each other.

Is my change from BMS to BS a good one
1. Yes, much thanks to my intuitive nature
2. Aiya, whatever it is, is good.
YAY!

Do I still need to go China for 2 years after year 3
1. (It kinda got irritated with me) but is still a No. hahaha phew.

Hope that all are true! Then I would be impressed with Sian.

More pictures later! Lunch!

*****Edited*****
I promised photos.
No captions though, lazzzyyyy

Group photos!
Love this the most.

Oh ya!
Our monopoly game!
Gang of 4

All these are mine mine mine!!

Saturday, July 05, 2008
[[gawd]]

Just what the fuck ?
I would expect an ounce, ok no, a pinch of maturity.

It's that too difficult to ask ?

Apparently so, considering that the you guys weren't even the leads in the issue.
I turned that dislike into repulse. Into revolt.
To think there's still this co-operation till before school starts.

I am so very glad that my group didn't consist any of them.

It's not possible for people not to talk, but please. With some respect.

I knew why Brian said some people would just remain as your friends. Because as your friends they already went overboard. God knows what happen if you treat them nicer.

Jackass.

Friday, July 04, 2008
[[race]]

Laughter is an instant vacation

If that's true, I have went around the world for many a times.

Amazing race's fun when you have known the peeps for a year already, when you weren't gearing up to win.
We have damn cui programmers.
They gave us the 4 numbers to a lock combination, so that we could find the exact combination to unlock a box.
Turned out... any combination would make the lock unlocked.

We had a pit stop at pitstop cafe, again pelts of laughter always came with every trip to pitstop.

Okay, I shan't bored the readers with details from the amazing race.

One word: Fun.

And so I sneaked home while the rest went for the fright night in Camp Kristen.
Woooooo~~~

Tomorrow's Gang's day!
Wooo!

[[Reg!]]

Timeline till registration :

7:11am - Wellington called and asked if I could do relief work today. I said after 9.30 possible, and they didn't called me back. (Note: In my world of dreams I still could remember registration, I am good man!)

8:45am - My alarm sounded. Snoozed

8: 52am - Dear abused the starhub net sms and sent 3 sms at one shot. The "tweep tweep" got me. Me and my stupid idea.

9:19am - Roy called and apologized and laughed at the fact I woke at 7.11 rah!

9:20am - 9:28am - Surfed Old Navy, David and Goliath (phew, no wants yet)

9.29am - 9.30am - Manic clicking of the STARS planner. Gosh, my heart was beating so fast.

Ended up...

Zhao Liang overslept.
Song Hui was late.

So...
So..
So..

We changed our HW class.

Which means if Tuesday got BS205 lab...
I still have to attend school.

Eeek!

Nevermind.

[[LOL]]

I was asking dear to see my new bhb dis pic and there you go, the lame things we do.

I knew this would be "demanded" to be taken off soon, so heck! Some entertainment for the lucky few:

He was asking: 這個angle好看嗎？我帥嗎？我酷嗎？

*bursts into laughter*

Thursday, July 03, 2008
[[.?]]

A nicely plan gathering.
A long awaited day.

為了這一天，我曾煩惱要請誰。
為了這一天，我不惜請假。
為了這一天，我不曉得到底重復我的話好幾遍。

問問你自己，除了百般的道歉，你為了這一天做了什麼？

別跟我提什麼1st july，明明就沒有在一起，提來榦麼？

他就那麼高高在上嗎？
是一天不去，他就會大發雷霆嗎？
去，到底是為了讓人知道你有多深厚的信仰，
還是。。。

是希望總有一天，信仰會变誠懇？

家家有本難念經。
我這個朋友做的很困難。
一邊要讓一個人諒解。
另一邊，要讓她知道我們都在支持她。

了解，懂得往往一線之差。
差別就在於過後是否會有體諒。

反正每次想找你，你就是不在。
早已不是什麼新鮮事了吧？

Why is it that the people we tried to hold on to always leave ?
Why is it that everytime it's always the same people putting in the effort bring the rest back ?
Why is it that no one can appreciate this fact ?

I read in "Dicey's Song" that holding on is important.
I doubt people feel the same way too.

When's the last time you made an effort to organise, HECK, to attend a gathering with your long lost-contact friends?
When's the last time you make a promise to talk to your friend and DID IT ?
When's the last time instead of flooding people mailbox shooting god damn loads of ideas of where to go and actually did it?

How long must I hold on to ?
Let me know quick.
Because I am slowly losing that grip.

[[SAs]]

I AM SO DAMN HENG!!
IF C3 is reading this, thanks for the arrangement man!

ZL said I was heng in the balloting round, and now even the arrangement thing!
Shan't say much till FOC's over ;)

Had a fun time yesterday.
Song hui was mentioning, 1 year flew by damn fast.
I replied,

3 more years you going to work liao. AHAHAHA.

Senior camp made me missed ISIS 的原班人馬.
This camp felt so familiar yet strange at times.
Somehow something's missing, but not sure where to pin point.

Maybe I was too tired yesterday.
Maybe maybe...

Nevertheless, they had to tease me during introduction. I guessed that's my retribution for saying.. :

Me: Hello, I m Cher. I switched course from BMS to BS, going year 2.
*silence*
Them: Tell us more about yourself la.
Me: Erm erm erm, oh ya, I rebonded my hair recently
Them: *laughs* =.=
Them: Traffic light?
Me: Red
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.
.
.

Them: Who ah ? What course one? What year de ? Got come FOC before ?

Derrick: If Brian's here I will stick to him like superglue.

Sorry dear, been concussing way early before 2.
Just as what I spectulated, month of July seemed to accelerate.
It wouldn't be soon before long.