An Apple And The Pasture

Sunday, September 30, 2007
[[w33k3nd]]

Fruitful weekend I supposed.
After a near 5 days of enjoyment and relaxation.
Came to a realisation that maybe I just love Chemistry more than Biology.

Just hate it when people jump to conclusions.
Seemed ironic when that's what I always do.
The thoughts just kept invading.
Thank goodness for my strong fort I supposed.

Really very tired of considering every aspects.
How did I got that courage I really want to know.
Maybe.. ignorance was the courage.

Now that I knew so much, how could I even bring myself to be ignorant ?

Last day before school starts. Enjoy.

Saturday, September 29, 2007
[[ch0cs]]

Went out with Peabrain yesterday.
It seemed so long since we last met and there's so much to catch up.

惋惜與愧疚
That was how I felt after the meet up.

He presented Royce chocs for my birthday.

Bitter!

Champange!!

I was very kind to let my family have a piece each. Lol. Sis was saying she didn't feel like eating the Meiji chocs which our mom just bought.

I have with me now :
Toblerone
Ferreo Rocher
Meiji Dark Chocs
and finally...

Royce chocs.

Do I seriously looked so unhappy ?

Nonetheless, the fact that chocs make people happy is true.
Coz I felt the immediate change in mood.For the better.

Just realise it is another form of concern.
Another form of understanding.
Another form of blessing.
Another form of love.

Though I shouldn't be slacking...
thanks Boss!

Thursday, September 27, 2007
[[b3@ch]]

It's apparent that I changed the blogskin again.
Didn't have any idea what to change to... so just this then. For now.

Trip to East Coast was... not uneventful.
It was eventful to the max in fact.
Your inital fall was "beautiful"
The second one was... cui. Lol.
My fall was graceful ahahahaha.

Yes, I am "Beethoven"

If only the sky is bluer~~

Simple things in life. Eat your chicken!

It was all good fun.
And all good things have to come to an end.
Thank you for the afternoon.
And all your "really"s.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007
[[d0m3]]

"人算不如天算" I guessed that sums up what happened for the whole day ?
Delayed time
Change of location
Unexpected time clash
Lack of time etc...

Yet... everything went well in the end.

It was a long walk.
A very long walk.
Under the afternoon sun.
I was really thankful for the breeze.

Our ultimate destination was closed for the day.
I didn't know whether to laugh or cry.
Ahaahaha.

Nonetheless....
We went...

Dome.

Si Min said it was milkshake. I was sad =(

It's actually iced mocha espreski (if I got the spelling right)

Fun couldn't even describe the day I suppose.
Right, gotta rest my tired legs.
iSqueeze anyone ?

Saturday, September 22, 2007
[[c|0+h3s]]

Today was the official opening of the iSkin stuffs that my dear friends bought for me =)

My apple finally have some protective clothing to wear!!!

Ok that was damn random.
It's just an excuse to thank these people:

Si Min!! My lao gong!!! Thank you for giving me what I needed for my birdday!

To the rest few, thanks for sharing the gift. It's impossibly expensive.
Derrick
Li Ying
Song Hui
Zhao Liang

What a lazy Saturday~~

[[19092007]]

After much procrastination and complains I have finally emerged to blog.
What a week, what a week indeed.
If there was a week for " Feed BP more" I guessed this would be it.
If there was a week for " Make BP sick" I guessed this would be it as well.

So much details... where to start ? From the beginning?

As I have often told people, 2007 hasn't been a good year.
Moodswings almost a 360 degrees, random thoughts that kept me awake through the nights, not to mention the gruelling rides to workplace. Ah, how could I even forgot the politics ?

Convinced that all these would change for the better, I went to FOC with an open mind.
Perhaps too much of an open mind, that somehow landed me in all sorts of troubles.
Nonetheless, it(uni life) is certainly better than those slacker's days.

I guessed that sort of sums up the whole '07 to date

Wednesday. 19.09.2007.
I woke up in anticipation for the day, but calmed down soon after. What's the point ? I knew I'd get the joy and laughter at the end of the day =)

Gang's lunch! With a special twist. It was indeed a special twist when Mar emo-ed and told me she was touched by my comment. Yeah! 2 壽星婆celebrating their birthdays together, every year without fail. That's something I'd never get sick of.

認真的女人是最有魅力的
Can see from these 2 images? If not I don’t blame you. They were actually spoiling my birthday cake.

Marilyn and Me!! Yeah!! The Sep babies =)

Aww man! We looked sweet together! ( Say yes)

We miss Yuhong (do we?) 5 Bellas ~~~ ( Not 4, not 3, not 2, not 1, is 5)

This is my slice of cake. Yummy!!

6 years plus of friendship already… not too long, not too short either. I could not picture us as aunties next time. Where would we be ? Would we be together even till then ? ( I seriously hate this side of me, throwing down a bucket of cold water is one of its favourite hobby) Nonetheless, I love my gang!

I was a spoiler. I am STILL a spoiler.
Wee Meng said “No more next time”
Ahahahahaha. The trick was $%^&*%^ horrible. Such an easy see through. Cheh!
I refused to act blur.

Their initial plan was to present me with…

My Cake. I thought 7th month was over ?

Simin told me Apple was my favourite.. so…so….so… I meant the white colour one actually. Perhaps I could get a iTouch next time =P

My real cake!!! Chocs truffles~~~ Weee!!!

Remind me again, how could I not love ISIS ?

A very pleasant conclusion, considering that our friendship barely started.
Sincere thanks to FOC committee for putting me in this hyper group. ISIS… ISIS!!

In record speed, I rushed home after Econs lecture. Late and without dinner. Poor Derrick had to eat his dinner at home as well.
I reached home at precisely 8.40PM. That’s surprisingly early for a Wednesday.

My cousin came over and celebrated my birthday as well. So touched~~~

Mom ordered Tiramisu. That meant “ Pick-me-up” in Italian.
Judging by the appearance of the cake.. yes I will.

The 4 young people. (Read: I am still 18)

The aftermath of my birthday led me to being spastic and so….

Boo!

Righty. Time to thank people for their well wishes!
• Brian – The No. 1 wisher!! The numerous wishes
• Benedict – The very 1st SMS!! 12.00.33.
• Luppy – Yes you did not forget
• Beth – Despite you being busy with your prelims
• Roy – Thursday
• Wei Chao – For the sms and Wednesday call
• Yu Qin
• Yi Roe
• Tien Shen
• My Gang
• Yangthong
• My sister!!!
• Ying Hui
• Tin An
• Khai
• Ashyura
• Shan Bin
• Rest of the ISIS @ celebration
• Li Ying
• See Ming
• Shiu Hei – for the special fact. Yes! My lunar birthday is the same as my “ang moh 1”
• Li Hui
• Kah Hong
• Choon Hua
• Cheng Han
• Geraldine
• Syafiah
• Catherine.

Forgive me for not sending back a “thank you” message. I find them super insincere and bimbotic.

Thank you guys/girls for the wonderful day! Really made me very very very happy =)
Happy 19th to myself!

Thursday, September 20, 2007
[[m@h@++@n]]

I would definitely be doing myself and my friend a disservice if I did not blog about this.

We went Central @ Clark Quay.
Manhattan Fish Market.
I must have been a real fussy person to keep requesting to change seats.
Ahahah, sorry! It must have made u paiseh like siao =)

Thank you for the thoughful gifts and yes the whole nite must have cost a bomb.
It didn't matetr much how I felt, more like how you felt.
So long you enjoyed planning this, and of course the night itself,
Yep I'm happy =)

Monday, September 17, 2007
[[c3|3br@+|0n1]]

A simple affair.
A simple meal.
A simple gift.

Time as it seems, likes to play tricks on people.
Yet what people sometimes failed to realise;
The moment was indeed timeless.

The last monday.
The second last deliberate meetup.

A feeling of longingness?
No, too strong a word.

Nonetheless, the memories built would always be there,
ready to be nurtured.

Thank you, and I demand you write your full name on the card. Rah!

Sunday, September 16, 2007
[[@|b0m]]

After yesterday's release of emotions, I felt like I have experienced a lot.

Apparently not enough.
It was with foolish courage that I delved into Mitch Albom's book " The 5 people you meet in heaven"
It was foolish as I have not overcome my own obstacles and I just sent myself further into confusion.

Insipring indeed, but nonetheless it required loads of courage to read it. At least for people like me.
It might be months or even years I guess, for me to read books in the rest of his series.
Maturity of thoughts is not there, and neither is my experience.

Nonetheless, meaning phrases I came across:

" All endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time"

"Scenery without solace is meaningless"

"Death doesnt just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance between being taken and being missed, lives changed.
It is why we are drawn to babies... and to funerals."

"Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know"

"No life is a waste. The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone"

"Sacrifice is a part of life. It's supposed to be. It's not something to regret. It's something to aspire to."

"Sometimes, when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You're just passing it over to someone else"

"Parents rarely let go of their children, and so the children let go of them. They move on. They move away. The moments that used to define them - A mother's approval, a father's nod are covered by moments of their own accomplishments. It is not until much later, as the skin sags and the heart weakens, that children understand; their stories and all their accomplishments, sit atop the stories of their parents, stones upon stones, beneath the waters of their lives"
This part struck a chord in me. In essence this is true for many generations to come. It would not only happen to me, but also to everyone else. I hated this, but it is something that we have to understand and accept.

"Lost love is still love. It takes on a different form. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it.

Life has to end. Love doesn't

Guessed that sums up why I said I don't have the maturity to comprehend such thoughts.
For those who could truly feel the impact of such, I am not very sure am I in the position to envy, for something huge must have happened in order for you to feel these words with huge impacts.

Saturday, September 15, 2007
[[c0nc|u5|0n]]

榮幸
煩惱
殘酷
玩弄
不安

美好回憶
快樂時光

看穿
盤問
八卦

氣
擔心
煩
傷心
不舍

討論
結論

It's for the best.
What's good might not be logical.
What's logical might not be good.

I am really grateful that we have chose the logical path amicably.

Though I have said this many a time but just...
Thank You.

Thursday, September 13, 2007
[[|d3@|3ss]]

I really have no idea how to start.

"O or I or me or me."
Nice of you guys to ask.
Nice of them to spread.
Thank you for the publicity.
I need no more of those.
Conversations of this sort, strictly ISIS.
What ever happened to codes of honour ?

To my boss:
I shall not pretend that it was an entry not to be seen by others.
By any chance if they did, then good.
This story is far too complicated, too vexing.
Shall tell you more when we meet up yeah ?

Took a break from tutorial (now, when did I ever started?)
Watched documentaries on bodybuilding and exocism.
There's more to life than just notes and finishing tutorials.
As much as I understand that deadlines are close,
Such thing never end.
So what's the point of rushing them ?

There's a time for everything.

Monday, September 10, 2007
[[s0rry]]

My apologies to everyone whom I have bitten your head off in one way or another. These are the people I need to thank.

Simin: 床頭吵架，床尾合。Thank you for putting up with my silence.
Wee Meng: For listening.
Derrick: For the randomness, really tio stunned.
YY Jnr & Song Hui: Ultra high today la at break time =)
Tin: For being so gracious about Tues 18/9
Li Hui: For reminding me that I have friends outside uni. Catch up soon!

To Mr. YCWN:
Very very sorry to make you put up with my black mood today.
Thank you for being there and yep, just let me shoot out whatever I wanted to say.

The last thing I need when I get home is people nagging, telling me to do thing I don't wish to

This is a random thing I thought up of while I was going to school:
" I don't like whiners. I never did. You can whine, complain or even lament. Always remember that the world owes you nothing"
I guessed I had said enough on that case.
Couldn't be bothered anymore.

One more day.
Just one more.

Sunday, September 09, 2007
[[遺憾]]

對與Ｘ先生的感想...是有點震驚，不過早已料到。
也許不是每一個人都能那麼理智。
我知道因為我的原因，讓你感到心煩。
讓你不斷的想，當初的選擇是否是錯的。

我無法左右你的思想，
也沒有想過要那麼做。
只是希望你能看見，
其時你的周圍不是空白的。

我希望有那麼一天你們能成為最要好的朋友。
雖然你們還沒到敵人的地步，可是我還是要說。。。
多一個朋友永遠是好的。

”江山易改，本性難移”
但願你能找到一位知音，聆聽你的故事。

＊＊＊很遺憾我的父母還把我當小孩看待．也許是他們對我的一份關心，不要牽累我。也許對他們而言，我真的還是一個小孩。
希望能早日風平浪靜。但我也知道，希望越大，失望也會越大。

從這兩件事。。。在我腦海所浮現的。。。 “It takes two hands to clap"

Saturday, September 08, 2007
[[r3s3rv@+|0n5]]

Went Bugis with YT.
" A child is guided by wise parents"
Indeed. How many times have I known that ?

Went NLB in attempt to study, but ended up borrowing a book.
Couldn't believe that the other title wasn't found in the main branch.
Let's hoped this would be a good read.

We watched this show at Yishun GV.
Much thanks to the weekend crowd.

Quite a meaningful movie, with some memorable stuffs here and there.
One that hit me was " It's ok to let someone else in"
How many a times have I heard him said that ?
Not in those precise word but...

Loads of randomness in these couple of days.
I am proud to say I concussed yesterday.
Brain totally drained from marketing.
Mr. Wols sent a random message. Hmmm.
Yes. Parent wishes.
Yes. I remembered.

To Mr. YCWN :
- Very sorry for the accidental hit. Hoped that your eyes are still right where they belonged =P
- Thank you for making this movie a "punishment" for being late ahaha.
- Please kindly find my sect. before time's up
- Hoped you'd enjoyed the day.

Thursday, September 06, 2007
[[0v3r]]

Finally everything had came to a closure.
No longer cared if it would affect anyone's emotions or feelings.
I think I had made a logical decision.

Though....
I have to admit I made some mistakes.
Things that I had not anticipated.
I shall keep quiet for now on.

Been too high, too happy for various reasons.
Couldn't remember them all.

Thank you for carrying the printer.
Couldn't say much here, but yep really appreciate it.

Was feeling quite pissed towards the afternoon today.
On the verge of shooting back, but decided to keep quiet anyway.
Let's hope that the situation will change. Soon. And quick.

YAY!! I GOT MY PRINTER!!

The reality show at Channel U was really apt.
Not very much help, considering that they were mostly addressing the medical problems.
Nonetheless, "People always fear the unknown" Yep totally agree. Though it was something I realised long ago.
Shall read the books they recommended

Wednesday, September 05, 2007
[[urgh]]

I was feeling quite high today. Cos I....
1. Woke up at 7.38am
2. PS-ed people again
3. Skipped lecture

The no 3. was what that made me high.Ahahaha

The day was quite okay.. until I chance upon...
http://yjscienceclub.blogspot.com/2006_12_01_archive.html

Sigh. They even did up a blog.
Ah wells.
I saw my name there.
I am pretty sure the photos were used.

I cannot emphasis enough on how much I missed that lao-kok place.
I don't get it.
Maybe it was really because of my wonderful teachers.

Righty, the end is coming.
And I am so enjoying =)

Monday, September 03, 2007
[[f0|k5]]

These 2 days....
Had been very memorable.
And I thank both of you for that.
I felt blessed. Really.

I knew it was hard for both of you.
To graciously accept the whole thing,
To let me know exactly how you felt.

What's fair might not be good, and what's good might not necessary be fair"
I have said this many a times, and each time I chose to be as impartial as I could.
No matter how much this hurts either of you.

I'm really glad to know both of you more.
No matter how confused I felt after those walks.

I don't know how much you guys would feel from these words
I don't know how much you guys would understand from these words.
It just occurred to me that words really failed, or maybe I am just not good at it.

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