An Apple And The Pasture

Saturday, March 31, 2007
[[m@r@+h0n]]

Suntec. Vivo. Sentosa.
Attire : Boots.
That was my worse(?) best(?) trip to Sentosa. Thanks to the interview in the morning, I decided to wear my lucky boots and now I would be working in the same office as SY. Ended up in Sentosa =.= a real test of my so called confidence as I was treated like an alien (in boots!!) "變裝" as fast as I could and 變back when I reached the confort of Vivo. Crapped @ Mac as ML REFUSE to go home on the account that 9pm was a time too early to reach home.

A marathon of food wastage. KFC ( my fav!) : 50% un-polished off. Camomile tea (50% undrank). Noodles (70% uneaten)

Yet all these could not beat the marathon of talking. Mr. Chua Tin An, thanks for yesterday + today talk. 12.30am - 6.30am woot. Oh yes, help me thank your friend. Due to a twist of event, I owed someone whom I did not know at all a favour which I paid it back today. I woke at 4pm today, an hour to prepare for tuition today. It was pretty surprising that my eyes were opened 90% throughout the talk which I could not say it was true for the other guy over the line. Ahahahahaha.

Anyone dare to beat this record with me ? Bring it on!

Thursday, March 29, 2007
[[+h@nks]]

Again, the thanks(giving? ) time (day? ). Though they would not be here to see this ( and I hoped they wouldn't) I still have to thank OST (even though I did already through emails).

Serene - My Shifu for teaching me so many administrative things, for forgiving me when I was being rude and especially when I am absent-minded
Dawn - For being that crappy MANAGER (=.=) and always tio suan-ed by me, thanks for sharing your experiences in life which I have not had the chance to really exploit and also for buying back my lunch without fail everyday.
Ms Goh - For liking me and hiring me the moment I finished my interview.
Ito - san : For being such a bloody funny director, charming & polite as well =) He really manages OST well.
Robin & Howe - the occassion car rides to Harborfront save me man. Even though Robin FORGOT MY NAME ! Erps. Then again, Robin taught me loads as well :)
Hock Ngee!! Another fun division manager who really come and talk to me whenever I am bored =))
Kabeya-san, Urata - san : For making my day each day @ OST, cos they always make me laugh no matter what they do, AHAHAHA ^^
Ah Soon, Lau - who come and joke with me, giving their cute expressions whenever they pass by me.

All the best to their future =)

Damn, I still can remember where each and everyone of them sits.
I miss OST already.

[[3nd]]

My days @ OST are finally over.
Sad ?
Happy ?
Relief?

Not very sure myself. All I know was I am already starting to miss what I have there.
FA gave me a farewell lunch, and that was really the best lunch I ever had ever since I stepped into OST. All the FA peeps were there, and we had a 2 hours lunch.

While packing through the 3 Jap ppl stuffs, it was as though I was packing for my own departure as well. I sorta snatched things from Amy to do, for that would be the last time I am doing it at OST. Answer phone la, DHL services la, mails la what have you not.

Even though it had been a short 2 mths, I did not know how that lump in the throat formed when I bidded my last farwell to the FA, esp to Ms Goh. I struggled to say "thank you" when Ms Goh wished me well. It felt like results' day all over again (which was rather true, since I got my pay hee!)

Let just hope that my next company would be better.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007
[[割捨]]

捨得﹐捨得﹐要捨才有得。I tried to convince myself for these past few days but I failed. These few days of hand over just gave me one thought : Intrusion of my space. The new girl was fine. Slightly slower, a little more lian but all's well.

I just hate the idea of sharing the recep counter. Hate the fact that I would not be calling the staff, emailing them, surfing the net from here and msn-ing.

Why do we regret at the last moment ?
Why ask me go out for lunch and evoke this feel in me ?

As hard as I tried, I could no longer sense the anger in ridiculous situations that boss had put me through. I used not to believe what I've said " The pay does not matter so long the working place was good" for I was not convinced that OST has that good a working environment as I imagined it to have.

What a fool I was.
I missed opportunities in school.
I missed them at love.
I missed it at work.

I have did the exact opposite of what my dad had warned me not to, what my cousin advised me against.
In the pursue of more $ for uni, I had made hasty desicions, blinded by emotions.

好馬不吃回頭草。No matter how delicious it was, how green it looked.
That was always the pharse I used to comfort myself, to tell myself never to look back. Instead just treating it as memories.

割捨.
That's what I have to do now and pray that my new workplace will be well.
That's what I have to learn so that no such incident will repeat.
Though I have perhaps sinned by giving up a nice place.

Monday, March 26, 2007
[[3rps]]

I thought I would have an easy life (ok, even easier life) at work today. Gawd. It did not happen. The new girl who was suppposed to come today did not came. Why ? She lost her way. SHE FUCKING LOST HER WAY. SHE LIVES IN THIS AREA AND SHE BLOODY LOST HER WAY. *faints* Why can't she just take whatever mode of transport she took on her day of interview and go take whatever random bus she wants when she go home?

While I am happy that I still have the full control of this oh-so-fast computer for the last day. I still find it ridiculous. Guessed that's the difference between an A lvl and a person currently pursuing a degree. I bet if I told my boss eons ago I lost my way, she would ask me to TRY and come just like the D&D fiasco.

Alright. I am hungry from typing so much.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007
[[EA]]

SEA - Not South East Asia, but SINGAPORE EMPLOYMENT ACT. As happy as I am about my last day of work - 29March 2007, I had to curse myself for not reading the SEA before signing that useless piece of paper with this company.

(3) The notice to terminate the service of a person who is employed under a contract of service shall be not less than —
(a) one day’s notice if he has been so employed for less than 26 weeks

Technically, I should not have even given that 2 weeks notice. Yet it states so in the contract. Then again....

No contract of service as an employee shall be enforceable against a person below the age of 21 years and no damages or indemnity shall be recoverable from that person in respect of the contract of service unless it is for his benefit

Irregardless of my chinese and english age I am still under 21. The benefit part is a bit ambiguious though.

I am soooo tempted to quit seeing that no matter how kind their tone were, how good the environment was. I was treated unfairly. Ewww, I can never forget the incident at D&D, nor this stupid pay cut reason (which as of now isn't effective.) How could I even forget the sacrifices I've got to make ?

Sigh, 29 March suddenly looked soooo far off. =(

Saturday, March 17, 2007
[[+u|+|0n]]

I had my 1st tuition session as a tutor today. A P4 girl living 0.5km away from my block. Ultra convenient =). She was relatively strong in her other subjects except English - A subject which was tough to teach.

It was funny to hear the mom called me " Teacher Cher". A joke which I said in Sec sch turned true. I shall tell the girl to call me Sis. Teacher Cher sounded way too weird. It was fun teaching her, not because she was exceedingly brillant in catching hints or answers, nor was she quick in writing but it brought me back to the time when we played "teacher and students" when I was young.

It was so addicting that I stayed for an extra 20mins just to help her out with her math and science. That patience that I had not, did not bothered to spend on friends whom I thought were merely wasting my time. Maybe that's the "problem" with kids, you just could not help but spend that extra time with me. Or maybe that's the problem with me. Anyone who wants tuition ?

People. Why some of them are just so senseless. Went to Yahoo! Answers for the heck of it, and looked at alllllll the ridiculous problems they post. I knew one lost sense and logic when they are in love but not to that extent, certainly not?

What's the point of delving into things you knew you can't make a conclusion out of it ?
Why can't they just live with in, occassionally touching the surface ?
Why make life so hard to live ?

Whatever. Those aren't my problem. Just felt that pity for those people, always trying to find new troubles and problems for themselves. Of course a source of entertainment. www.answers.yahoo.com =P Those who are bored can go and answer some of the more ahem. challenging academic questions ~~

Oh yes, the battery transplant operation would start once the transplant organ fly from Canada to me. We have prepared for this operation and Dad was appointed to be the main surgeon. My apple will live. Be strong!

Thursday, March 15, 2007
[[d3@+h]]

It's official. My ipoddie had breathed its last breath. It died of a common condition know as battery cancer, in which it's life span shorten with every charging process, with every song played.

It died sliently, leaving me a notice of its death. =( my 2years of friendship with my ipoddie *cries*

Dad told me "節哀順變" while Mr Tongs. told me that he would need to dissect the apple so to prevent the virus from spreading to other apples. Mr Loo. said he will mourn for my apple.
Dad said he would fix it up with an external batt pack from torch, so that I will have a torch and an apple at the same time !!!!!!! NOOO!!!!

Rest in peace X X

Monday, March 12, 2007
[[tru3]]

Thanks to Mr. Cek Ark's influence...

"You're all sneers, bad attitude and streetwise skills. You're in no mood to take any attitude from anyone, let alone some punks who think they know it all. In this mood, it might be best to avoid company."

Never so true.

[[l0s+]]

Me:“ I am not feeling well, might not be able to make if for the DnD”
She:“Try to come. Thx”
She:“We need you…hehe”
An hour later…
She“ Is ok. See you on Monday”

What am I expecting? Oh perhaps a phrase of “ Get well soon” ? What do I want ? That they truly want my presence and not just so that I could do all the stupid low IQ work ?

Axed loads of people today. My cousin kindly offered to take me round NUS again and I axed her as she touched on a touchy subject. Spent the whole of yesterday mood swinging, even my capability of stopping my nephews crying and screaming in pain did not cheer me up.

NUS open house sucks. Perhaps the excitement had gone since it was the second day. Loads more good looking people, but loads more English speaking as well. Urgh. Did I mentioned loads more elite JC students. Something which I so fucking detested.

I was always reminded to go for the course and heck care the teachers, especially when you hate them. For that single reason alone, could just pull your grades down to nothing. I am torn between the 2 universities. All the apprehension I had about NTU were gone when I stepped into NUS. A school I thought that was for me. A school that I always wanted to be in. How could everything just change so fast?

It didn’t help when I kept on thinking about that blue door and the past. It didn’t help that I was about to be jobless again. It didn’t help when I kept on thinking about the future. What I want to be. Who will I be. It didn’t help to have 3 kids crawling all over you wanting your attention only to realize that your ultimate aim is just to play with kids.

Which course ? Which school ?
What future? Where to go ?

Many white lies I have said in these couple of days. No one understands the reason behind them. Yet, since when does anyone can?

Sunday, March 11, 2007
[[why]]

NTU. The Bio faculty changed my image of it. Nonetheless, I still prefer NUS. People @ NTU are like your genie. We said we wanted ice cream, we have it. We said we wanted campus tour, someone just jumped out to volunteer.

Overall it was fun. The prof who took us for the faculty visit was a charming Korean. SY went gaga, hoping to know his son =.= Equipments, apparatus are all pretty new and high tech. If not for the distance, I would have consider it as my top 3 choices.

Did not went for the DnD, and I felt pretty good about the choice even though some of my friends weren't pleased about it. It's just so hard to please all the friends you knew. When you go out with this group, the other group expects you to be with them. Is like being late. If you are forever punctual and suddenly you were late just this once. That would be the thing they will always remember. Sigh, I have my own feel. Please just don't talk as if I have betrayed you.

Met loads of people there. Of which some I greeted warmly, some I pretended not to see, some no fate to see. (Apparently Irene is a direction idiot).

He stepped to the door at the same moment as I did.
Visions fixed on each other across the blue glass.
A greeting , a smile.
A flash back to the CCU past.
That night @ KFC where we were all frantically calling for helpers.
That final day of competition.
Mr Loo. said it's fate.
In turn I questioned why play such a trick ?
Why the sudden appearance when I have cleanly forgotten what happened ?

Thursday, March 08, 2007
[[s+unn3d]]

Me: Good morning, OST
Man 1: Hello, can I speak to the operation manager, XXX ?
Me: I am sorry, she no longer works for the company
Man 1: Siew Leng don't work here ?? Then who is the new OM
Me: I am sorry sir, there is no such position
Man 1: No such position ?! Then no one replace Siew Leng
Me: Siew Leng was our HR manager. Would you like to speak to the current one?
Man 1: NOOOOO. I WANT TO TALK TO THE OPERATION MANAGER.
Me: SIR, there is NO such position. Siew Leng WAS our HR manager. Would you like me to put you through to our current one ?
Man 1: I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO HR.

*SLAMS THE PHONE*

Me: Good Morning, OST.
Man 2: Hi I have this item with the code MAJ-#$@$ do you have information about it ?
Me: I am sorry sir, you would have to give me more details like whether is it a camera.
Man 2: I am not sure, YOU SHOULD KNOW BETTER THAN ME (this statement stunned me )
Me: Sir, I would need more details as OST has 3.. (cuts me off)
Man 2: This code was given by my client, he wants to find it.
Me: Please hold while I check for you.
Man 2: - he piak the phone down =.=

Me: Good morning OST
Man 2: Ya I called just now
Me: Regarding about the MAJ-@#$@#
Man 2: Yes
Me: It is a digital camera
Man 2: Digital camera. You SURE?
Me: Yes
Man 2: How do ... ( my turn to cut him off muahaha)
Me: Our branch deals with industrial PDAs, so I have to direct you to our sister company
Man 2: Oh so it is a diff ( I cut him off again muahaha)
Me: The hotline is 13242352254354
Man 2: Where is it at ?
Me: River valley, sir
Man 2: (in a small voice) ok thanks.
Me: Welcome.

All in a day's work...

Men. Are they all as stubborn as a mule?
When I say they don't work here means they don't
When I say there is no such post means there isn't
Why must you receive the news as if someone died and you REFUSE to accept the truth ?

Isn't Singapore almost wireless now?
Does it hurt to find out what MAJ-#$@#$@#% is on the net?
Do you not receive any education ?
If you are capable of finding out the company's no, why not the specs of the bloody camera?

I am pretty sure Mr. Cek Ark, Mr Loo, and my dear dog have more stories to tell at the IT fair. Weeee, I love suaning ppl

Tuesday, March 06, 2007
[[b|ind3d]]

"next time we meet up
bring u to the playground
u can choose ur animal
then we shake u thoroughly"

----tongs

That was Mr Tong's response when I kept whining non-stop about not feeling the eathequake. Apparently the whole FA people were either too thick skinned or had lack of nerves. Man, I missed the 1st one as it was at night and as you knew, I slept like a pig. N NOW THIS !!! :'(

Of course there is a reasonable excuse why I can't feel it. Here:

I had been reading these fine prints since the start of the day. I sweared I am going blind already. Sponsor me for Lasik. Anyone ?

Sunday, March 04, 2007
[[g@++@c@]]

$80 for a new change. Some called it reward, some, an indulgence, others a waste. A price to pay for a short length of escape. An escape from reality. It seemed that every new beginning had been marked with a change. The first breakup, a change of hairdo. The first failure in JC, a change of insights. The first real job, a change of clothes. The A' levels, again a change of hairdo.

Nothing was more inspiring than a movie of Gattaca after that. A movie that I owed my teacher. A movie that was 2 years overdued. A god's child they called, who had overcome the discrimation of science.

Putting it to reality. It boiled down to us. The imperfects. To overcome the discrimation of results and grades. To compete as much as we can, as far as we can against the ones who've got more As than we can ever imagine.

God's children.
Are we ?

Can we do it?

Can I beat it?

Saturday, March 03, 2007
[[r3su|+s]]

It's over. All the waiting. All the anxiety. All the nervousness. They were all finally open. Some called it doom's day, while others, a day of glory. It's funny how we got so worked up over moments that just passed us by in a second. Many days of spring cleaning for just a 15 day new year. Many hours of anxiousness just for a second to sign and collect results.

A A B. Perhaps the grade that many wanted. Mediocre to the max was what I felt. Was is because of my smarter friends who got triple As? Or was it because of the hidden disappointment in a subject that I felt the most confidence for and again history had repeated? Or maybe it was the subconscious thinking that my chances of entrance may very well be lowered due to me being a lucky dragon.

The moment I heard Mrs Sim said " You did very well", the look in her eyes told me that it was really the truth. Could not talk when I saw my results. I had a very strong urge to scream, but my vocal cords failed me. My tear ducts was functioning well though. After all the process of consoling some, congrating the others. I set off to thank all the teachers. It was really one touching moment when I saw Ms Lim. Those help she rendered, how I regarded her as my friend and me as hers. Those were enough to move me to tears. A word of thanks. A hug of gratitude was really not enough to express what deep appreciation I had for the teachers.

Went KBox to lose myself in the atmosphere of relief, sadness and happiness. It was only when I got home, that everything seemed much more real.

Don't hit me if I am too self centered.
It's just because I am never satisfied.

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