An Apple And The Pasture

Monday, February 27, 2006
[[b|+ch]]

What's wrong with you? We are SO DAMN ATTENTIVE 2dae and u must GO ALL OUT to ruin that. I dun give a damn if u r readin tis. Get this : J1s tr are so much better dan u for goodness sake GO SELF REFLECT b4 inflicting all ur moodswings on us. EVEN I dun moodswings EVERYDAY on ppl. Ridiculous.

Of which, i would like to sae sorry 2 mr. sim 4 disappointing you. Not gonna give any reason 4 failing, thou I feel tt i improved le. Thanks lup for e short tutoring ytd. Lol OKAY ! Thanks 4 e KFC. OKAY ! Thanks 4 cmin all e way fm marine parade 2 get e formation sign which mounts up 2 nth and climbed e stairs n STRANGLED me after realisin tt we could take e life and JAB me waist.

Thats all 2 report. Sir. :P

Saturday, February 25, 2006
[[cCu]]

Ate half cooked meal 4 breakfast, sent me running into HQ toilet which really smells like shit. I meant e old HQ. ANYWAY, as expected the helpers' numbers dropped primarily cos ey finished clockin the hours. Wad sense of responsibility they had. Den again, sm1 in my com os haf e same prob, shang liang bu zhen xia liang wai... simple theory.

Again again ey accused me of being eps. N yep, abit surprised n shocked @ sm1's attitude abt being e only CI 4 a particular unit.

Again again MF FLAG WAS UP. WE HIT ALL 3 REQUIREMENTS. DAMN PROUD OF DEM. Again it was touching 2 see MF flag rose up but this time with a hint of sadness? N tt nelson urgh!! I want 2 take pics of dem la.. sigh I understood his chu fa dian la.. budden e fotos dennis took was OVER EXPOSED ahhhhh!!!!

Towards e end of e comp 1 participant gt hit by either : spars/mallet/peg and had 2 b hospitalised. Lag for a few sec and gt e reserve 2 replaced her. E excitment of the whole competition for reserves ? For me =) felt tt adreanaline rush. Hope tt HSC cadet is fine.

Saw lotsa commendable as well as sm nt so gd pts fm e comp. One could really tell the unity of sm particular school wen ey actually bothered 2 climb on each other 2 adjust e lashing on e flagpole few metres off grd. One could os spot how good is their on the spot desicion making skills are, esp so for flagstaff.

Had a wonderful "truth or dare" suggested by cyn while eating pizza. So damn hilarious esp having a lethal combination of zq's laughter wich sent us all into fits.

Really enjoyed myself 2dae...sigh y must i b back to reality again ?

Friday, February 24, 2006
[[|@ugh+3r]]

Did quite badly for my standing board jump 2dae. 180cm... yeeks. Was it the curcuit ting? Or was it that I am trying to vent out wadever numbness I have? Pinkie said I have a big grey cloud over me 2dae thus unapproable. Had to get 2 the whole rountine of being cheery and I realised... it is getting more draining each time round.

"Laughter is the best medicine", indeed I laufed quite a lot today. Boobs on Ash, @ GP etc. Yet something always had 2 bring you back to reality yes ? Every glance @ e badge, every look @ lil kids being so carefree and even wad david said : As a leader you nid 2 haf a helicopter view...brought me back to reality that I am not in service anymore wef 31 march.

My CT tot I was in a black mood coz my 'rents wanted 2 tok 2 her. Which I am still figuring out who lied 2 me abt "who-wants-to-see-who". Nonetheless... it doesnt matter anymore.

One wrong might lead to another wrong... was it my wrong 2 join back e corps again ?

[[hur+s]]

Am I being over sensitive ? Got a response from my OC. Din really anticipate that it would hurt like hell. Why must it be times like this then I realised how important NP is really to my life ? Why am I just wrecking my future without any thoughts?

Everyone's saying that ey r nt giving me pressure. Do they ever know that the true pressure comes from exactly what they said ? Really really cant take it. I really really need some space. Excuse me while i dry the tears

Thursday, February 23, 2006
[[kn0wn]]

She called today. Somehow I felt betrayed. Then again, I should have known it. Then again, I sensed tt. How could a teacher pretends nothing has happened and let a student slip slowly yet steadily downwards ?

Dad raised his concerns over my studies again. Really felt appreciative that he did not pushed for more. Did not expect myself to end up like Remy, choosing studies over NP. Wrote the email and sent to my fellow CIs as well as officers. I guessed is good bye for now or rather 31 March.
Felt really bad to leave the squad in such a mess. Whoever is takin over? I wish you luck.

Studies...Was it complacency? Was it confusion ? Wadever it was, I am stressed up as it is already. Someone once told me feeling stress is nth, everyone feels stress. It is wad one do when they are stressed tt matters.

Pre-u sem ? Tt reminds me. Should I get out while i can ?

Tuesday, February 21, 2006
[[ch0cs]]

"Daring, hyperactive, always smiling"

"Loud, fierce, domineering"

Lately, I had not be excuting or showing such traits. A person who used to and still is challenging people by staring them down had averted her eyes away from the short but disappointing glance.

Flashed back to that miserable piece of paper that the CD department had gave us. A miserable piece of paper. A miserable piece of paper that indicates a lot of things. A miserable paper which can cause one to escape from reality. A miserable paper which others thought that it was lame filling it up.

Underneath all this enthu-ness, underneath all this cheerfulness, had anyone thought that this girl would be scared ? Had anyone thought of what she will fear ? Does anyone knows who could she talk to ? If so, tell me. For I am tt girl.

They always say eat chocs. They will make u happy. I need my chocs. Who is gonna give them to me ?

Sunday, February 19, 2006
[[dr3@ms]]

Woke up all of a sudden @ 9 tis morn. Had a dream. It was so damn freakin real, as thou as I really wanted that to happen. Got so distracted by it that every sentence I read from my chem, every numbers I wrote for my math, I could not help thinking that wad if that really happened ?

Still remembered vividly that I tried 2 struggle out of the grip. Stil remember how I was able to relate a face to that grip. It wasnt a strong one, jus a desperate one ? Could not help contemplating that did I really want that happen. Saw Kelly's new MV, and that comfirmed my suspicion.

Of all time, and till now I still tot about it. Am I a lagger or wad. Thank goodness there was one less thing to remind me. Otherwise, I 'd go crazy...Memories, some times do really haunt...

[[Campcraft]]

Woke up @ 5 and cook maggie noodles 4 myself. Ytd was a big day 4 me. Anyway, jus some quick updates on Fri.

Fri: Bathed in sch after the run and felt so shiok after tt. Went home 2 take e stuff neccessary for cc come to hq. By the time i reached, the setting of e pitch was almost done so I helped with e outer boundaries. Went Novena Sq after tt wif manda yan ru joyee and zi qing (been gg 2 novena sq 4 e past 3 days , thank goodness din c ken. ops) n den we started tokin abt hq ghosts. Joeyee started it. Damn. To TINK WE R GG HQ AFTER TT !!! So yea anyway, J's stories scared us, and while i was walkin home I made luppy called me. N in the end survived the bath @ home w/o scaring myself.

Saturday : COMPETITION DAY ! Losta mess , Lot I/cs nt co-operating, lalala~ etc. D05 r damn idiotic. Kip shouting my nick as thou as it is sm sorta religious verse. N kip comparing my name wif my nick. Kip accusing me tt I din do anyting. Morning was damn freakin hot, I ought to turn "ba gua" alreadi.

Luppy came and gave me LJS n Joeyee's BK during da break. Naturally those d05 were askin was tt given by my guy. -_-" LJS food was so nice esp so wen u r damn freaking hungry. Thanks lup =) .

Then came an afternoon shower, which made us all kip takin in logistics frm e lots to e mod tents. N e air so 4 once freakin cooling , damn shud b @ home slping. N den I accidentally sprayed water on COMMANDANT !!! hu jumped a little and smiled. N e d05 made it a big hu-ha by sayin tt she is gonna strip me off my rank. Arugh! Y did i promised tt 2 joker 2 let dem b runners on the girl's comp

MF came @ abt 3. N I WAS SO DAMN HAPPY @ THE BOYS COMP. Thou indeed the guys aren't the best, BUT THEY GOT THE FLAGPOLE ERECTED STRAIGHT WITH OUR FLAG FLYIN AND THE SHELTER UP. So damn touched by the scene. Budden.. bcoz i was one of the offical, i cant really scream out in joy. Shall treat the guys wen i am dwn 4 parade =) .

There was tis boy team , north vista ? Who made me nearli spilled on my water on the reserves. The captain pulled the flag so fast tt they jumped 2 attention and back to wad ey r workin @ withtin 2 secs like frogs. Was comtemplating 2 lauf or "cry" @ it. Lol. It was pretty creative thou.

All in all , the day did run smoothly , and i was so damn proud of the guys. Thou indeed there was an inital worry abt the flagstaff. BUT IT WAS UP. Gosh, I am ranting....

Thursday, February 16, 2006
[[s@k@3]]

Yes yes .. old man told me how suxy is Sakae. Yes yes he wun nvr fail 2 suan me abt e tpy incident.. nvrtheless I went Sakae. Had F&P stuff... Well .. hmm i sux @ mod tent. ZQ kip on sayin abt SZ n ya...

No one joined me 4 dinner... so went n. sq n told Joeyee n my dog i dun1 BK. Went up 2 i. boshi. budden sm ppl sae ex lo.. Went tpy hoping tt e sakae gt dinner buffet. Saw Cindy, said hi to her. Told bee to sieze e opportunity. Lol.

Ended up @ CWP Sakae. Din noe y I actually went out with this 2 clowns 2 eat. It was really a wonder how I managed not to get choked. Pretty fun lo I shud sae...Din have such fun since... quite a long time ? Since school started ? Thank goodness I have NP.. otherwise.. I will basically rot in school.

Kept contemplating to stay overnight @ HQ or not... Stil cant tink of an ans... A year ago old man told me smth abt treating ppl.. A yr later I found out that if the company is right .. ( NOT those business type of company) wad he said will always ring true.

18 Feb 2005. Date drawing closer. Tt reminds me tt I had 2 remove my "zhu ge liang" butterfly. Pia Kia barbie 4ever lol .

Wednesday, February 15, 2006
[[3njym3n+]]

Had gp, david called me a pia kia cos :
a) I folded up my sleeves
b) I got a butterfly body art , which look like tattoo
He changed it 2 pia kia barbie : coz i am cute (muahahahaha)

Skipped BSC,went HQ. Had briefing with those idiots, sigh, hq trained CIs r getting worst. We have bastards hu joined CIIs for e sake of honor and authority. We had idiots hu bcm CIs, and dun even noe how 2 RESPECT their fellow CI mates.

WTF ey r tinking. COME ON LA WE R GIVING DEM A CHANCE 2 CLOCK THEIR BLOODY HOURS and ey COME HERE 2 TOK ABT V DAY O LVL RESULTS.Anyway, e pt is I stil had fun.

Amanda told us tt e butterfly on my arm reminded her of zhu ge liang, wen it is suppose 2 remind ppl of the chi version of romeo n juliet. Zhu Ge Liang is a damn smart guy hu thinks of war tactic. So tt was damn hilarious.

Ziqing gave me such a warm welcome by shouting abt, scaring ppl and ltr teased SZ n me, (i was tryin 2 play a game with him coz he looked bored) wth ? N she slapped manada's face wen manda fell 4 tt "slapping" trick. Yes tt is our mad IC for u.

So xcited!! Comp day drawing nearer... WEEEE! Off 2 study my bio.. tata

Tuesday, February 14, 2006
[[lala~]]

V-day today. Lalala~ thanks ppl 4 e wunderful gifts. Thanks bee 4 tt hilarious msg, stil have to convinced my ma i am stil single.. but wadever. Apparantly everyone's attention was on everyting except school. M was busy eating, n licking his fingers. K was decorating the gift for Y, S was busy tryin 2 paste heart on K as a joke. G asked me 2 pass a letter 2 J who will enjoy deciphering it despite wad she said. Lalala~ n e list goes on n on.

Pretty sad la.. chem test tml. Cant go out. Apprantly u can c I am such a good girl hu place my studies first, unlike those who pon chi enrichment. tsk tsk. Wich i did not regret attending? E lesson was interesting la, esp so wen i finally change my mindset abt china. ANYWAY...

Had a hilarious GP lesson wen David was toking abt his class haunted hse during CVD n e ppl's reactions. So damn freakin funny when he acted out e expressions of those kids n YJ ppl. Guys hugging each other la.. screamin n shouting la.. Damn i wasnt dere 2 see.

Yay tml Mrs S treat us KFC. As well as gg 2 HQ. Busy busy life...

Saturday, February 11, 2006
[[p24]]

WE MADE $560 FOR CVD!!! Thou e money is not for us... but stil so glad 2 make so much money =) So So SO many ppl to thank!!

Gel Girls :

Siew Ying
Jolynn
Yangthong
Ying Hui
Amirah
Denise
Simone

Promoters:

Yuen Shein
Jia Hui

You guys really did a g8 job !!

Game Keepers :

Ken
Fifi
Mao
Bell
Ash
Yi Xian

Runners:

Meena
Reena
Xiao Yan
Isaac

Forgive me if i missed anyone out. Thanks JieYing! For buying the RISK game.

So sad la! Din get to c Mr. S proposing to his gf. EEKKKK!! I wan c !!Ms T was like saying if you buy 2 from me I tell you my potential's name. ( lol. soon u will ms t.) Quite cool la.. bought quite a few stuffs. Chocs cookies gel n THE KEY CHAIN !!! DAMN COOL LA!!! The chicken wing TT WAS SO DAMN NICE!! N e body art ting.. well e color... (apple n I have diff style thank goodness?? )

My dog PS-ed me! How dare (IT) . Slpt @ home instead of dinner.. so gonna skin it alive n eat dog meat. Anyway, din regret gg for p24 gathering @ J8. Rach Ken Simone Pinkie Mel Isac Johnathan Henry Ash Van were dere. Haha e 1st successful gathering. Went sakae n eat. N i was "awarded" the person hu ate e most award. Lol. Most of dem were commenting that I looked small yet eat so much. Lol. Poor Johnathan, his toe nail was totally off. Must be pain la, nonetheless i did make sm attempt to step on his toe.

Took spastic fotos dere n was chased by e guard for getting on e stage. Wad hell. Isac did a brave ting by swallowing tt ginger + wasabi+ wadever .. until he spit it out. Lol. Abit sad la Xian was not dere.. she had 2 "qiang chai chan" nxt time. Lol. Damn fun.. Love 221 !! You guys rock!

Friday, February 10, 2006

Heard sm bhb stuff @ sch... Apple was suggesting to Ad to gif perfume to his duper dao gf. A shoot reply given was - she dun nid , she is naturally fragrant. Nearly spat out my oh- too- bland-but-stil-edible-laksa.

Is that wad it is? Complimenting ur the other half even thou u noe tt is not a fact? Tt is so ...fake. Wad happens if e relationship ends? No longer frangant? Speakin of which.. Valentine is coming.

Prepared stuff for CVD.. reminds me of last yr's? Stayed back jus to c wich chairs/tables r stable enuf on tt rocky road? Went to buy a bdae cake? Midnight was..... nvm.

Tml sux. I want to go to HQ!!! Bloody CVD. If it rains.. i shall go n hide. Maybe it is nt e day but smth else...IT IS SMTH ELSE. Jus cant stand those those... those idiots. Eyes hurt like crazy after filtering out each alphabets from tt stupi macroni. Least there are sm helpful souls who actually stayed back to do.

N tt YS had 2 remind me of sm idiot hu sae " I walked bp to the bus-stop" (cm on , i have legs) which led a short tok abt.... tt was.. e past.

Thursday, February 09, 2006
[[h3c+|c]]

gosh... wad a life i am leadin. 1/2 per day internet is totally a horror 2 net-addict like me. More of work.. sigh i am startin 2 miss IM, oh no! Wad if my typing speed is getting slow ?!?! Got back fm HQ 2dae.

Ordered sm chocs n cookies fm T13, dun even noe y i did tt, perhaps coz Grish n JY r dere, or perhaps coz i simply duno how 2 spend tt $30 tics i am suppose 2 buy. FUk tt sch.

Tok sm crap wif nel tokin abt y sm CIs hate CIIs while stapling the stupi cloths 2 the poles. Using staple gun is actually quite a hard job for a noob( as my kids would say) like me. Cant seemed 2 staple striaght n e freakin gun tt nel brought fm hta was damn heavy. Den he gt 2 spoil da ting by tokin abt wj n me... tt had been like wad? A very very twisted rumor fm NP...wich of coz dere r more wich i DUN wish to tink abt it.

Finally popped up here nt onli to update, as well as IM. It's been so long since i toked 2 ppl online, esp bee. Lalala~ so glad tt nth changed, tok 2 me abt his design , asking suggestion. Lala~ oh ya, reason why i was here? WAiting 4 hair 2 dry b4 slpin hoho

Monday, February 06, 2006
[[w0oZy]]

Thanks so much 4 u guys de concern. Still feelin a tad woozy in sch. Nearli wanted 2 go to tt sick bay budden, mind over body !! wahaha. Mrs Chen totally rocks la... kip using elmo as eg for chem lol. No doubt she is shane's mother. Like mother like son.

Went n bought e stuffs needed for CVD with xian, simone,ash,ken,mao,mel and pinkie. Den pinkie n me went 2 deposit her $$, help one old lady too =) . Ri xing yi shan lalala~ . Went to tt thai chi restaurant. Kip tinking tt is a thai restaurant, turns out 2 b a norm zhu chao. Not bad la.

Yipee tml dun nid do pe. wahahaha.

Sunday, February 05, 2006
[[f@|n+]]

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